Wednesday, February 01, 2006
yes hello loggers(: i think it's great how the blog is brimming with posts. haha. so much so that the song couldn't play last time because there were too many people. hahaha cool cool.
oh well. anyway. yes you know how i've not exactly been enjoying myself in school. and how sometimes i finish school feeling like shit. and the fact that I KNOW people are nice and that i should be happy makes it all the worse. so it's like how i really prayed hard that things would get better. and so praise God i guess it got better today. i mean for the first time i actually felt like i was having fun. it was quite good. don't know how short lived it'll be but that's not in my hands.
ok so my point is. how things got better today and how company seemed enjoyable..i was having fun and all...but i realised how weak i am. i found myself making fun of others. and i had to be the unwilling accomplice to a half lie. just happened to be at the wrong place at the wrong time. and i'm thinking how i wanted to have fun and now i'm having fun. and how i've wronged God so many times today amidst all the fun. and i'm wondering if it is possible to have fun and not make God unhappy? of course it is. and so. that'll be my resolution from now on. i have a class outing later? can i do it? i don't know.
Jesus you're the reason i live.
take my life Lord
use me as You will.
empower me.
rice
yes hello loggers(: i think it's great how the blog is brimming with posts. haha. so much so that the song couldn't play last time because there were too many people. hahaha cool cool.
oh well. anyway. yes you know how i've not exactly been enjoying myself in school. and how sometimes i finish school feeling like shit. and the fact that I KNOW people are nice and that i should be happy makes it all the worse. so it's like how i really prayed hard that things would get better. and so praise God i guess it got better today. i mean for the first time i actually felt like i was having fun. it was quite good. don't know how short lived it'll be but that's not in my hands.
ok so my point is. how things got better today and how company seemed enjoyable..i was having fun and all...but i realised how weak i am. i found myself making fun of others. and i had to be the unwilling accomplice to a half lie. just happened to be at the wrong place at the wrong time. and i'm thinking how i wanted to have fun and now i'm having fun. and how i've wronged God so many times today amidst all the fun. and i'm wondering if it is possible to have fun and not make God unhappy? of course it is. and so. that'll be my resolution from now on. i have a class outing later? can i do it? i don't know.
Jesus you're the reason i live.
take my life Lord
use me as You will.
empower me.
rice