Thursday, January 15, 2009
hey loggers.
as you all know, the retreat has been v disappointing for me. Even so, I learnt something. I learnt humility through service. I lost my temper at some of the guys there who were pretty rowdy during quiet time. I went to retreat with a lot of baggage, trying to find some peace, but they just wouldn't let me. So I flared up, yet i knew i could settle things in a different way. Reconciliation taught me humility in such a real and practical way.
However, i think thats the only thing i came out of retreat with. I am feeling pretty tired from a lot of things, am pretty stretched and i know im losing the fire inside of me. My lessons in the first week have given me a taste of how my future weeks would be like - tiring. I still have a lot of stuff on my hands which i have taken up at different points in my life. now it seems that i will have to scale back on some, but don't worry, i'll still be around in LOG and in core. I am thinking of scaling back involvement in the sec threes formation team, and my school bible sharing group outside. I feel that i need to spend more time with my family and also with felly, otherwise its pretty unfair to them as well. in the midst of all this, is being selfish bad then? i realise time for myself hasn't been much at all, even time to just sit down and enjoy life. everything i do is for a reason and a direction.
going thru quite a bad patch now. pray for me k.
God bless
mark
Monday, January 12, 2009
zomg. retarded shape bread. i think i might re-do. or else, draw free-hand and scan in. but basically, its liddat la. with the bible passage somewhere else on the shirt. in type writer fonts. cos i like. heh.
Sunday, January 11, 2009
live log blog! live!
hur. okay. i migrated to LJ btw, so now im at gahbrielle.livejournal.com. and i stated tt im gonna try and get everyone's affirmations here. heh. erm, square bread shirt design, tml den i post up k. its in my laptop at my workplace.
*pls highlight area under your name
Anne
hello nut (: i dunno why, but it seems at every camp/retreat, you are my pillar of strength, even if we didnt spend alot of time tgt. i kinda withdrew from you after the first day cos i felt our irritating songs were not helping cultivate retreat mood and setting. heh. hence we didnt share alot with each other. but whatever your struggles, u know u can always find me yea. i somehow understand what u're feeling, but i can assure u tt this community accepts everyone for who they are, including you and i. so come and take shelter whenever u are weary and tired of the world. we love u. nv doubt tt k (:
Bel
room buddy! yay! heh. honestly, before this retreat i was praying really hard for u. for it to be a sort of healing for u, which is actually why i had high expectations of this retreat. for u and a few others la. i hope u have found peace and continue to find peace 'in the real world' and even if u dont, have hope and trust tt God will give u the reconciliation u need in His time. abt aussie, think abt it a bit more yea. i dunno if u feel u have ntg to offer in LOG. cos even tho u say u dunno what your gift is, maybe this retreat would be a start to find out. like i've nv seen anyone who is as enthu as u abt evangelisation [PROJECT FISHERMEN!] so i would like to affirm u for tt. heh. and i totally support u heading it pls. just know tt LOG wouldnt be the same without u.
Kris
bahhhh. why u nv come back ): hur. i know its really difficult juggling God and CCA. yes, i've been thru it. and i know it sucks when stuff clashes ): i also was caught between retreat and open house. but then i thot to myself, this retreat is gonna be kind of like a revival and i dont wanna miss 'riding on the waves' [somebody's quote, cant rmb who] just wanna remind u tt God is always calling. and even if u cant leave dance right now, keep juggling/struggling and nv let go of God k. and i guess every dance u 'perform', will be extra beautiful if u do it to glorify God (:
Jes
meep! (: thanks for all the drawings on my hands the past few days. hurhur. and praise God for your record breaking sharing. heh. i think in the past, whenever i mention anything abt evangelisation, i always rmb u taking a negative stand [no offence!] but now, i dont hear those any more. yay! rmb tt u can evangelise by being Godly towards your bf too. and i think tt's impt as problems in relationships with non-christians become very real. dont shy ar, log can grow in faith with your sharings. hur. btw, im definately gg into comm studies ((: if by some divine intervention i get into NTU, i'll be your junior. and u wont bus to sfx alone any more! lol!
Jess
hello! just wanna affirm u for your prayers. i've nv heard anyone verbalise prayer so fluently. like really. heh. its awesome la, so praise God. also, it seems every time u share, u add on to the list of my own sharings. hahah. like every issue u point out, i also got smtg to say abt tt. yep, so i'll just like to affirm tt we're on the same track. lol. anyways, like to jes, just wanna remind u to draw your bf to not just log, but more imptly to God. can start small by being Godly and understanding towards him. i've seen my sister struggle with it, so i know how difficult it is, even when yall dont share much abt it (: [actually i myself struggle with it. hahah] dont tire yourself out doing too much of God's work k. always rmb tt this is for God and He is our motivation. i promise i'll step up soon to relieve some of your workload/burdens.
Joan
lesbian partner!! u know, besides bel, u were the person i was praying for really hard before retreat also. heh. even tho i said i expected much from the retreat, the expectation was of God to heal u [and a few others whom i was praying for as well] i dared not expect anything from u. even during saturday sharing [before recon and praying over] i stopped myself from reminding u tt u havent gone for recon since 9487463597626 yrs ago. hur. so im really heartened to see u go for recon tt night. yay! would like to affirm tt God has really forgiven and He really really really loves you! ((: and i know how stubborn and procrastinating u can get, so here's a reminder to start living your life for God. heh. i dunno if u still feel as tho u havent found your gift, but i guess it takes time. if it helps, swee shared tt one of his 3 commitments is to help loggers find their gifting. heh. dont be lazy now. poey and i will bug u like crazy. loves gf!
Ricer
hellowee. welcome back ricer! hur. i've nv been really close to u. so i guess u coming back is a second chance. heh. anyways, y'know tt night before the night session, we were sitting by the water cooler, talking abt reconciling with a brother-in-christ. i knew tt night was the right time, and praise God it happened. i was sitting in front and i heard whispers, and when i turned back, i was so heartened by what i saw tt i teared. lol. i believe he was grateful for tt recon as well. anyways, keep close to God k. im sure u'll get the answers in His time. but guidance, definately always given ((:
Liver
bahhhh. u, like kris, also nv come back!! )): during the 2 days u were gone, log really bonded and grew to realise alot of things, like we are actually quite spiritually mature. no, this is not to make u feel bad, but when im away for CCA, i would like to know whats gg on in log as well. so this is kind of an update i guess. rmb army session tt day u came late, den i casually said, aiya quit choir la. den u told me to quit my CCA first. hur. i really went home to think abt it literally, and asked myself if im able to do tt. and the answer is, no, because tt would make me irresponsible. but on the 3rd day, i did make myself promise i will devote my time to youth ministry this yr, and not some crazy ass CCA [smtg i thot of doing when i enter uni] just rmb God is always calling. especially when u have such a great gift for music [being receptive to the holy spirit and actually directing musicians accordingly]
the verse tt scared me into making tt commitment: matthew 16:25
Mark
heys philosopher. saw your book on socrates and jesus. i think its quite cool to be interested in philosophy. heh. it gives new insight to the rest of log thru your sharings. just wanna affirm your patience, especially in dealing with conflicts. i hope yall reconcile the differences soon so tt the youth ministry in sfx may flourish. i hope thru this retreat God has renewed u, and tho u're cutting back on stuff, still retain the same drive and motivation of God (: dont burn yourself out yea. i'll step up when im done with school work, ard feb, i promise. anyways, i think core's doing a great job so far and would like to affirm you for the difference u have made.
Melvin Seah
zomg. i cant believe u actually spent your few free hours at retreat. and for the big session some more. hur. i dunno if it was constructive for u, i hope it was. but i just wanna affirm u for taking time to come [to a damn ulu place some more]. i think its amazing how [honestly] you're not very close to alot of loggers and yet u choose to come for sessions week after week. but now tt we have an outreach plan, i guess its time to really get to know each logger on a deeper level. praise God for your presence since we started out as a community. come have more sharings with more loggers k.
Poey
rawr. hurhur. u're like the cute boy of log la. hahah. thanks for doing stupid and cute stuff tt makes me laugh nonstop. lol. on a more seious note, praise God for your ingenius idea of yes man. its now spreading like a disease. hur. and praise God for your other insightful sharings. its awesome how u always search endlessly for answers. and thks to your infinite-finite thots tt brought our lunch convo topic to smtg spiritual. yay! heh. rmb to evangelise by being Godly to your gf k. oh ya, help me bug joan yea. lol.
Sim
hello kor. hur. you and your nonsense, keeps making me laugh! sheesh. anyways, just wanna affirm you for taking time to be at the retreat. and for your sharings, which sometimes give us a different view of how things can be seen. i hope the retreat has strengthened u, and changed u to be a YES MAN, and to step up more yea. also, somehow i feel tt u can be a good mentor for those in formation. hur. rmb to exercise the gifts tt God has given u. maybe we'll work tgt in 2009 (:
Soo
eh cheerful giver. hur. even tho u've admitted tt you're impatient and 'angsty when justice is not served', i think your stubborn-ness and persistence has paid off. heh. ricer is back! and i think partly cos u bugged her. i wasnt very close to her, but seeing u keep in contact with her even tho she doesnt come for sessions, just wanna affirm u for tt. also, walao, first day u shared abt being a cheerful giver, and for the rest of the retreat, the same msg keeps coming up. just wanna affirm u for being God's messenger and showing how we can concretely live this lesson. also, stop procrastinating! i know u know God knows, u have so much more gifts and talents u can offer than u are doing now. so praise God for that [its a pun!: an exclaimation and an urging for u to start stepping up. hur. okay, bad joke]
Swee
heys. praise God for the 3 commitments u made for 2009. i think its really applicable to our community. i agree, tt log needs to be more prayerful and tt there are still loggers who have yet to find their gifts and talents. and i just wanna affirm u for living your life as a true core member, in service to log. i miss random meet-ups and sharings at coffee bean. i rmb we use to do tt a darn long time ago. anyways, committing myself to improve the music ministry in sfx also means i'll work closely with u to improve music ministry in log. heh. i hope we'll voice out anything we disagree with. i foresee conflicts, and should tt ever happen, pls ar, remind me tt i wrote this (:
hey loggers.
as you all know, the retreat has been v disappointing for me. Even so, I learnt something. I learnt humility through service. I lost my temper at some of the guys there who were pretty rowdy during quiet time. I went to retreat with a lot of baggage, trying to find some peace, but they just wouldn't let me. So I flared up, yet i knew i could settle things in a different way. Reconciliation taught me humility in such a real and practical way.
However, i think thats the only thing i came out of retreat with. I am feeling pretty tired from a lot of things, am pretty stretched and i know im losing the fire inside of me. My lessons in the first week have given me a taste of how my future weeks would be like - tiring. I still have a lot of stuff on my hands which i have taken up at different points in my life. now it seems that i will have to scale back on some, but don't worry, i'll still be around in LOG and in core. I am thinking of scaling back involvement in the sec threes formation team, and my school bible sharing group outside. I feel that i need to spend more time with my family and also with felly, otherwise its pretty unfair to them as well. in the midst of all this, is being selfish bad then? i realise time for myself hasn't been much at all, even time to just sit down and enjoy life. everything i do is for a reason and a direction.
going thru quite a bad patch now. pray for me k.
God bless
mark
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______________________________________________Monday, January 12, 2009
zomg. retarded shape bread. i think i might re-do. or else, draw free-hand and scan in. but basically, its liddat la. with the bible passage somewhere else on the shirt. in type writer fonts. cos i like. heh.
0 Comments:
______________________________________________Sunday, January 11, 2009
live log blog! live!
hur. okay. i migrated to LJ btw, so now im at gahbrielle.livejournal.com. and i stated tt im gonna try and get everyone's affirmations here. heh. erm, square bread shirt design, tml den i post up k. its in my laptop at my workplace.
*pls highlight area under your name
Anne
hello nut (: i dunno why, but it seems at every camp/retreat, you are my pillar of strength, even if we didnt spend alot of time tgt. i kinda withdrew from you after the first day cos i felt our irritating songs were not helping cultivate retreat mood and setting. heh. hence we didnt share alot with each other. but whatever your struggles, u know u can always find me yea. i somehow understand what u're feeling, but i can assure u tt this community accepts everyone for who they are, including you and i. so come and take shelter whenever u are weary and tired of the world. we love u. nv doubt tt k (:
Bel
room buddy! yay! heh. honestly, before this retreat i was praying really hard for u. for it to be a sort of healing for u, which is actually why i had high expectations of this retreat. for u and a few others la. i hope u have found peace and continue to find peace 'in the real world' and even if u dont, have hope and trust tt God will give u the reconciliation u need in His time. abt aussie, think abt it a bit more yea. i dunno if u feel u have ntg to offer in LOG. cos even tho u say u dunno what your gift is, maybe this retreat would be a start to find out. like i've nv seen anyone who is as enthu as u abt evangelisation [PROJECT FISHERMEN!] so i would like to affirm u for tt. heh. and i totally support u heading it pls. just know tt LOG wouldnt be the same without u.
Kris
bahhhh. why u nv come back ): hur. i know its really difficult juggling God and CCA. yes, i've been thru it. and i know it sucks when stuff clashes ): i also was caught between retreat and open house. but then i thot to myself, this retreat is gonna be kind of like a revival and i dont wanna miss 'riding on the waves' [somebody's quote, cant rmb who] just wanna remind u tt God is always calling. and even if u cant leave dance right now, keep juggling/struggling and nv let go of God k. and i guess every dance u 'perform', will be extra beautiful if u do it to glorify God (:
Jes
meep! (: thanks for all the drawings on my hands the past few days. hurhur. and praise God for your record breaking sharing. heh. i think in the past, whenever i mention anything abt evangelisation, i always rmb u taking a negative stand [no offence!] but now, i dont hear those any more. yay! rmb tt u can evangelise by being Godly towards your bf too. and i think tt's impt as problems in relationships with non-christians become very real. dont shy ar, log can grow in faith with your sharings. hur. btw, im definately gg into comm studies ((: if by some divine intervention i get into NTU, i'll be your junior. and u wont bus to sfx alone any more! lol!
Jess
hello! just wanna affirm u for your prayers. i've nv heard anyone verbalise prayer so fluently. like really. heh. its awesome la, so praise God. also, it seems every time u share, u add on to the list of my own sharings. hahah. like every issue u point out, i also got smtg to say abt tt. yep, so i'll just like to affirm tt we're on the same track. lol. anyways, like to jes, just wanna remind u to draw your bf to not just log, but more imptly to God. can start small by being Godly and understanding towards him. i've seen my sister struggle with it, so i know how difficult it is, even when yall dont share much abt it (: [actually i myself struggle with it. hahah] dont tire yourself out doing too much of God's work k. always rmb tt this is for God and He is our motivation. i promise i'll step up soon to relieve some of your workload/burdens.
Joan
lesbian partner!! u know, besides bel, u were the person i was praying for really hard before retreat also. heh. even tho i said i expected much from the retreat, the expectation was of God to heal u [and a few others whom i was praying for as well] i dared not expect anything from u. even during saturday sharing [before recon and praying over] i stopped myself from reminding u tt u havent gone for recon since 9487463597626 yrs ago. hur. so im really heartened to see u go for recon tt night. yay! would like to affirm tt God has really forgiven and He really really really loves you! ((: and i know how stubborn and procrastinating u can get, so here's a reminder to start living your life for God. heh. i dunno if u still feel as tho u havent found your gift, but i guess it takes time. if it helps, swee shared tt one of his 3 commitments is to help loggers find their gifting. heh. dont be lazy now. poey and i will bug u like crazy. loves gf!
Ricer
hellowee. welcome back ricer! hur. i've nv been really close to u. so i guess u coming back is a second chance. heh. anyways, y'know tt night before the night session, we were sitting by the water cooler, talking abt reconciling with a brother-in-christ. i knew tt night was the right time, and praise God it happened. i was sitting in front and i heard whispers, and when i turned back, i was so heartened by what i saw tt i teared. lol. i believe he was grateful for tt recon as well. anyways, keep close to God k. im sure u'll get the answers in His time. but guidance, definately always given ((:
Liver
bahhhh. u, like kris, also nv come back!! )): during the 2 days u were gone, log really bonded and grew to realise alot of things, like we are actually quite spiritually mature. no, this is not to make u feel bad, but when im away for CCA, i would like to know whats gg on in log as well. so this is kind of an update i guess. rmb army session tt day u came late, den i casually said, aiya quit choir la. den u told me to quit my CCA first. hur. i really went home to think abt it literally, and asked myself if im able to do tt. and the answer is, no, because tt would make me irresponsible. but on the 3rd day, i did make myself promise i will devote my time to youth ministry this yr, and not some crazy ass CCA [smtg i thot of doing when i enter uni] just rmb God is always calling. especially when u have such a great gift for music [being receptive to the holy spirit and actually directing musicians accordingly]
the verse tt scared me into making tt commitment: matthew 16:25
Mark
heys philosopher. saw your book on socrates and jesus. i think its quite cool to be interested in philosophy. heh. it gives new insight to the rest of log thru your sharings. just wanna affirm your patience, especially in dealing with conflicts. i hope yall reconcile the differences soon so tt the youth ministry in sfx may flourish. i hope thru this retreat God has renewed u, and tho u're cutting back on stuff, still retain the same drive and motivation of God (: dont burn yourself out yea. i'll step up when im done with school work, ard feb, i promise. anyways, i think core's doing a great job so far and would like to affirm you for the difference u have made.
Melvin Seah
zomg. i cant believe u actually spent your few free hours at retreat. and for the big session some more. hur. i dunno if it was constructive for u, i hope it was. but i just wanna affirm u for taking time to come [to a damn ulu place some more]. i think its amazing how [honestly] you're not very close to alot of loggers and yet u choose to come for sessions week after week. but now tt we have an outreach plan, i guess its time to really get to know each logger on a deeper level. praise God for your presence since we started out as a community. come have more sharings with more loggers k.
Poey
rawr. hurhur. u're like the cute boy of log la. hahah. thanks for doing stupid and cute stuff tt makes me laugh nonstop. lol. on a more seious note, praise God for your ingenius idea of yes man. its now spreading like a disease. hur. and praise God for your other insightful sharings. its awesome how u always search endlessly for answers. and thks to your infinite-finite thots tt brought our lunch convo topic to smtg spiritual. yay! heh. rmb to evangelise by being Godly to your gf k. oh ya, help me bug joan yea. lol.
Sim
hello kor. hur. you and your nonsense, keeps making me laugh! sheesh. anyways, just wanna affirm you for taking time to be at the retreat. and for your sharings, which sometimes give us a different view of how things can be seen. i hope the retreat has strengthened u, and changed u to be a YES MAN, and to step up more yea. also, somehow i feel tt u can be a good mentor for those in formation. hur. rmb to exercise the gifts tt God has given u. maybe we'll work tgt in 2009 (:
Soo
eh cheerful giver. hur. even tho u've admitted tt you're impatient and 'angsty when justice is not served', i think your stubborn-ness and persistence has paid off. heh. ricer is back! and i think partly cos u bugged her. i wasnt very close to her, but seeing u keep in contact with her even tho she doesnt come for sessions, just wanna affirm u for tt. also, walao, first day u shared abt being a cheerful giver, and for the rest of the retreat, the same msg keeps coming up. just wanna affirm u for being God's messenger and showing how we can concretely live this lesson. also, stop procrastinating! i know u know God knows, u have so much more gifts and talents u can offer than u are doing now. so praise God for that [its a pun!: an exclaimation and an urging for u to start stepping up. hur. okay, bad joke]
Swee
heys. praise God for the 3 commitments u made for 2009. i think its really applicable to our community. i agree, tt log needs to be more prayerful and tt there are still loggers who have yet to find their gifts and talents. and i just wanna affirm u for living your life as a true core member, in service to log. i miss random meet-ups and sharings at coffee bean. i rmb we use to do tt a darn long time ago. anyways, committing myself to improve the music ministry in sfx also means i'll work closely with u to improve music ministry in log. heh. i hope we'll voice out anything we disagree with. i foresee conflicts, and should tt ever happen, pls ar, remind me tt i wrote this (: