Monday, March 20, 2006
Days spent pondering
Hai....aiya!
Lost again and again in this interesting maze of life. I don't know why I'm in LoG or CJ or in the Atar Servers. WHAT AM I DOING?
Am i just following the group? Maybe i should just leave....
What's my reason and direction in life??? i think i slack off now.
May of you will say that Jesus is your reason or life...i can't bring myself to say it, even if to myself, in other words make Him my reason. Must be some ego and arrogance of mine.Am i too selfish to only consider my dreams and ambitions? i also realised that it's too easy to be carried of trying to get high...often through emptying measures. Often i like to peer into shadows in a quiet place to regain perpective... and to calm down.
Giving is the theme of CJ this year. In today's readings and Gospel, what i find remarkable in how Joseph place his trust into the Lord and was selfless in the way he took Mary for his wife. At that time, even till now in the middle east, a virgin wife was expected. Abraham also place his faith onto the Lord, but unlike Joeseph received wealth. Joseph demanded nothing, not even an explanation for what he was ask to do. (On a side note, presenting Jesus to the temple as the law required must had cost a bomb for that poor carpenter's family.) In his little way, he gave everything.
Also to giving, one must graciously receive gifts from others. The teachers give us lessons. I feel guilty for being so sleepy in class today. How can we give if we don't graciously receive?
Let's us all make a wish each now...maybe a prayer!
Anyway...may God bless us all! Amen.
Cini
Days spent pondering
Hai....aiya!
Lost again and again in this interesting maze of life. I don't know why I'm in LoG or CJ or in the Atar Servers. WHAT AM I DOING?
Am i just following the group? Maybe i should just leave....
What's my reason and direction in life??? i think i slack off now.
May of you will say that Jesus is your reason or life...i can't bring myself to say it, even if to myself, in other words make Him my reason. Must be some ego and arrogance of mine.Am i too selfish to only consider my dreams and ambitions? i also realised that it's too easy to be carried of trying to get high...often through emptying measures. Often i like to peer into shadows in a quiet place to regain perpective... and to calm down.
Giving is the theme of CJ this year. In today's readings and Gospel, what i find remarkable in how Joseph place his trust into the Lord and was selfless in the way he took Mary for his wife. At that time, even till now in the middle east, a virgin wife was expected. Abraham also place his faith onto the Lord, but unlike Joeseph received wealth. Joseph demanded nothing, not even an explanation for what he was ask to do. (On a side note, presenting Jesus to the temple as the law required must had cost a bomb for that poor carpenter's family.) In his little way, he gave everything.
Also to giving, one must graciously receive gifts from others. The teachers give us lessons. I feel guilty for being so sleepy in class today. How can we give if we don't graciously receive?
Let's us all make a wish each now...maybe a prayer!
Anyway...may God bless us all! Amen.
Cini