Monday, March 13, 2006
hey loggers...
i'm like finally back to blog again. it's been a long time i feel. well.
ok. i kind of posted on my own blog already but well. just want to say that i really thank God for you all. i really thank God for bringing me to LOG in a very out of nowhere extremely unexpected way. to keep me there at the beginning even though i didn't really want to stay also. and it's just so amazing that He kept me here although there were many times that i almost decided not to stay. well.
if i didn't have you guys i wouldn't have been able to lifted up from all my despair this week. the fact that SDYR was there made it better too. i mean who would have known that when i decided ( as a oh ok lor decision ) to participate in this rally thingy..who would have known that it would have come as such an important part of my life. who would have known that God would have spoken to me and come to me so strongly through this rally. imagine if it were held on the original day? one week earlier. then what would i be now. living in despair..totally lost God SOMEWHERE in my desperation. i just realised this now. and i realised how God has been so amazing to me. all for me. a sinner.
i havent been blogging because i was too caught up with my emotions to even think about what i'm feeling and why i should not be or should be. and i lost God somewhere along the way. it's like how yes i know He's there. and He's what i need. yes i know i know. but. my thoughts just keep pushing it out of my mind...and i don't know. i just lost Him.
i'm glad to have gotten Him back. it seems like it's been a long time since i've had a nice conversation with God until i managed to calm down i think maybe thur or fri. and i guess things got better. God does things in such mysterious ways.
but i got what He promised. i asked for help. He gave it to me ever so often. He gave and gave and gave so generously until it was all clear enough for me to see. it's like shouting me you know..like my dear clarice!!!!! i am here!!!i am here!!! don't you realise all those people have been sent by me to help you...and NOW then you realise that i was there helping you all along..even before you asked. how blind i was really.
it's time to move on. really.
when i look at it this way. when i go to work...it's not gonna be just two year. but many many MANY years that i'm gonna be stuck with people i don't like (hopefully not so many). and i guess now the fact that it's only two years..and i'm only there to get a nice Alevel cert...just do it! and get it over and done with man. how bad can it get. SIGH. yeah.
and what's more. i have God!!! amazing God.
thank you for the prayers.
thank God for answering my and others' prayers.
well i think it's amazing how i would say that this is the worst week of mylife...but now i can't really say that anymore. because at the end of this half-a-worst week of my life...God came and shouted in my face:"I'M HERE DAMN IT! JUST TRUST IN ME AND LET GO." and everything became better.
i can't say that this is the worst week of my life anymore. He didn't let me. (:
praise God.
rice.
hey loggers...
i'm like finally back to blog again. it's been a long time i feel. well.
ok. i kind of posted on my own blog already but well. just want to say that i really thank God for you all. i really thank God for bringing me to LOG in a very out of nowhere extremely unexpected way. to keep me there at the beginning even though i didn't really want to stay also. and it's just so amazing that He kept me here although there were many times that i almost decided not to stay. well.
if i didn't have you guys i wouldn't have been able to lifted up from all my despair this week. the fact that SDYR was there made it better too. i mean who would have known that when i decided ( as a oh ok lor decision ) to participate in this rally thingy..who would have known that it would have come as such an important part of my life. who would have known that God would have spoken to me and come to me so strongly through this rally. imagine if it were held on the original day? one week earlier. then what would i be now. living in despair..totally lost God SOMEWHERE in my desperation. i just realised this now. and i realised how God has been so amazing to me. all for me. a sinner.
i havent been blogging because i was too caught up with my emotions to even think about what i'm feeling and why i should not be or should be. and i lost God somewhere along the way. it's like how yes i know He's there. and He's what i need. yes i know i know. but. my thoughts just keep pushing it out of my mind...and i don't know. i just lost Him.
i'm glad to have gotten Him back. it seems like it's been a long time since i've had a nice conversation with God until i managed to calm down i think maybe thur or fri. and i guess things got better. God does things in such mysterious ways.
but i got what He promised. i asked for help. He gave it to me ever so often. He gave and gave and gave so generously until it was all clear enough for me to see. it's like shouting me you know..like my dear clarice!!!!! i am here!!!i am here!!! don't you realise all those people have been sent by me to help you...and NOW then you realise that i was there helping you all along..even before you asked. how blind i was really.
it's time to move on. really.
when i look at it this way. when i go to work...it's not gonna be just two year. but many many MANY years that i'm gonna be stuck with people i don't like (hopefully not so many). and i guess now the fact that it's only two years..and i'm only there to get a nice Alevel cert...just do it! and get it over and done with man. how bad can it get. SIGH. yeah.
and what's more. i have God!!! amazing God.
thank you for the prayers.
thank God for answering my and others' prayers.
well i think it's amazing how i would say that this is the worst week of mylife...but now i can't really say that anymore. because at the end of this half-a-worst week of my life...God came and shouted in my face:"I'M HERE DAMN IT! JUST TRUST IN ME AND LET GO." and everything became better.
i can't say that this is the worst week of my life anymore. He didn't let me. (:
praise God.
rice.