Thursday, March 02, 2006
jess writes
hello there (: you know i havent blogged here before i think, maybe once. in fact i hardly blog to start with. hahah i visit this blog once in a while but i dont know why i never blogged. anyway you know all your sharings really keep me going when everythings seems to just suck. so yes this is my sharing
okay i dont know why, but ive been feeling sorta guilty cos i havent exactly been doing much in log even thought im prayer ic. i feel like i'm floating around in the communtiy. seriously i dont do much and i want to do more as prayer ic. i always talk to god about this but i dont know why. after a while, i just feel like i dont know what im supposed to do. then the whole feeling that im lost comes back and i end up not doing anything. so part of me feels like i shouldnt be prayer ic anymore la. i dont know what god wants, havent exactly told him about it. i'm starting to feel like im rejecting god's call if i choose to step down and all. but really, i dont know what to do. sometimes i feel like i dont exactly have a purpose in log either. so yeah. guys pray for me?
what else. i think today in ac, this girl shared devotions and she mentioned is40:31 i think thats the verse? basically its the eagle's wings one. dont know, that bible quote always seems to give me strength, for that moment to keep on going, knowing that i have god by my side. i think maybe thats what been keeping me going, all this while in ac. so praise god for he is there for me all the time. though many many times, i dont feel or know he is there. i think he is la. hahaha. another thing, THINKING. thats what ive been doing, i dont know whether its a good thing cos part of me thinks that by thinking too much abt sth, i complicate matters. so yeah i pray for simple faith. the faith to believe in god no matter what, without thinking abt anything. but just knowing that for sure he's there. yeah thats what im really going to pray for. cos often i dotn realise god is there for me, until i sit down and think think think. haha
lent. 40days for journeying with the lord. i think the fact that i ponned sch on wed gave me a good start to lent. dont know, i woke up and i started praying, as in really praying. which felt good, which gave me the strength to get through the day. i think lent reminds me what it is to be a catholic, what my whole religion is about. its about this guy called jesus dying on the cross for me. wow, everytime i think about it, it just amazes me so much. someone actually died for me. so yay. i love god, no matter how tired and dead i am in my journey with him. yup so i pray that lent will be a time for me, to find god in the center of my life again. cos i think hes been pushed further and further away from the center. so yup this is my sharing, nothing much. but yes i just ask for your prayers (:
jess.
jess writes
hello there (: you know i havent blogged here before i think, maybe once. in fact i hardly blog to start with. hahah i visit this blog once in a while but i dont know why i never blogged. anyway you know all your sharings really keep me going when everythings seems to just suck. so yes this is my sharing
okay i dont know why, but ive been feeling sorta guilty cos i havent exactly been doing much in log even thought im prayer ic. i feel like i'm floating around in the communtiy. seriously i dont do much and i want to do more as prayer ic. i always talk to god about this but i dont know why. after a while, i just feel like i dont know what im supposed to do. then the whole feeling that im lost comes back and i end up not doing anything. so part of me feels like i shouldnt be prayer ic anymore la. i dont know what god wants, havent exactly told him about it. i'm starting to feel like im rejecting god's call if i choose to step down and all. but really, i dont know what to do. sometimes i feel like i dont exactly have a purpose in log either. so yeah. guys pray for me?
what else. i think today in ac, this girl shared devotions and she mentioned is40:31 i think thats the verse? basically its the eagle's wings one. dont know, that bible quote always seems to give me strength, for that moment to keep on going, knowing that i have god by my side. i think maybe thats what been keeping me going, all this while in ac. so praise god for he is there for me all the time. though many many times, i dont feel or know he is there. i think he is la. hahaha. another thing, THINKING. thats what ive been doing, i dont know whether its a good thing cos part of me thinks that by thinking too much abt sth, i complicate matters. so yeah i pray for simple faith. the faith to believe in god no matter what, without thinking abt anything. but just knowing that for sure he's there. yeah thats what im really going to pray for. cos often i dotn realise god is there for me, until i sit down and think think think. haha
lent. 40days for journeying with the lord. i think the fact that i ponned sch on wed gave me a good start to lent. dont know, i woke up and i started praying, as in really praying. which felt good, which gave me the strength to get through the day. i think lent reminds me what it is to be a catholic, what my whole religion is about. its about this guy called jesus dying on the cross for me. wow, everytime i think about it, it just amazes me so much. someone actually died for me. so yay. i love god, no matter how tired and dead i am in my journey with him. yup so i pray that lent will be a time for me, to find god in the center of my life again. cos i think hes been pushed further and further away from the center. so yup this is my sharing, nothing much. but yes i just ask for your prayers (:
jess.