Sunday, March 12, 2006
SDYR!
Ok ok, I am still very very high. :D:D I was really looking forward to this. It has been my wish to evangelise but sometimes it is not in my means to reach out to a lot of people. I even have trouble trying to get an inactive catholic back to church. Although today it was just carrying stuff and ushering, I hope the non-catholics can see our effort. And also during p&w, see our faces, and see God in us. I gotta say I was so so tempted to start dancing and singing at the pre rally p&w already. Haha, but I still did ushering and stuff while clapping and singing. I was feeling very cheerful and stuff. Felt like nothing really bad has ever happened in my life. God has taken it off me. So I can face the people coming in with a grateful heart and really show God to others. Saw St anne's ppl! Saw a guy from RJ haha, i just like shouted his name and went to give him a half hug. He was shocked duh but nvm. :D The turnout was seriously not bad la.
Then ok the program started, I watched it during rehearsal already but this time it was even more real. The testimonials rocked. Rehearsal I was sniffing during first testimonial and the second one felt really close to my heart. Although not break up but I think rejection can be really tough too. Moreover, this time it was cause me and that girl were quite close and suddenly this had to fall on me. But really, during the rally, I kept thinking about this issue, but I never felt any pain at all. Prase the Lord! I went through all the things Leonard said, whatever he thought I did to. But really, praise the Lord that I didn't need to go through the desertion of faith then coming back to God again. Praise the Lord that he gave me the faith to tide it through. Praise the Lord for LOG which has always been there for me. Praise the Lord for my friends who have talked to me. Adoration was beautiful, I sometimes couldn't bring myself to say Lord, I adore you, Lord I love you because I know I have really sinned against him so many times and I am not worthy to say it. I have doubted him many times during this dark period of jc life and went back to him again. I really felt guilty. However, the last part of p&w was even more beautiful. first 2 songs I didn't know how to sing really so i just hum along and listening to the lyrics. Then came shout to the lord, all my life and king of majesty. The last 2 songs I just learnt during rehearsal. I felt everything leaving me, all my worries and burdens. In came this electric feeling and I really think it was the holy spirit. I really smiled, and was feeling very very grateful jsut like wad leonard had said. I was smiling, after 2 months of jc life, i was smiling. I opened up my eyes, and discovered, i was sweating but my skin felt so cooling. A wonderful feeling! A tangible experience with God. Right after that, when i sat down, again what happened before seemed to be another segment of my life. Blurred. I told some ppl before, that whenever I am in ado room and after i come out. I feel that the time i spent in ado room is another segment of my life. Something apart, like exclusive put aside for God and when I exit that period of time and place I go back to my life. Of course, God is always with me, but when i speak to him, and he speaks to me, we go to another world. Another paradise in my heart. Such a beautiful and comfortable feeling. Lord, I LOVE YOU!
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SDYR!
Ok ok, I am still very very high. :D:D I was really looking forward to this. It has been my wish to evangelise but sometimes it is not in my means to reach out to a lot of people. I even have trouble trying to get an inactive catholic back to church. Although today it was just carrying stuff and ushering, I hope the non-catholics can see our effort. And also during p&w, see our faces, and see God in us. I gotta say I was so so tempted to start dancing and singing at the pre rally p&w already. Haha, but I still did ushering and stuff while clapping and singing. I was feeling very cheerful and stuff. Felt like nothing really bad has ever happened in my life. God has taken it off me. So I can face the people coming in with a grateful heart and really show God to others. Saw St anne's ppl! Saw a guy from RJ haha, i just like shouted his name and went to give him a half hug. He was shocked duh but nvm. :D The turnout was seriously not bad la.
Then ok the program started, I watched it during rehearsal already but this time it was even more real. The testimonials rocked. Rehearsal I was sniffing during first testimonial and the second one felt really close to my heart. Although not break up but I think rejection can be really tough too. Moreover, this time it was cause me and that girl were quite close and suddenly this had to fall on me. But really, during the rally, I kept thinking about this issue, but I never felt any pain at all. Prase the Lord! I went through all the things Leonard said, whatever he thought I did to. But really, praise the Lord that I didn't need to go through the desertion of faith then coming back to God again. Praise the Lord that he gave me the faith to tide it through. Praise the Lord for LOG which has always been there for me. Praise the Lord for my friends who have talked to me. Adoration was beautiful, I sometimes couldn't bring myself to say Lord, I adore you, Lord I love you because I know I have really sinned against him so many times and I am not worthy to say it. I have doubted him many times during this dark period of jc life and went back to him again. I really felt guilty. However, the last part of p&w was even more beautiful. first 2 songs I didn't know how to sing really so i just hum along and listening to the lyrics. Then came shout to the lord, all my life and king of majesty. The last 2 songs I just learnt during rehearsal. I felt everything leaving me, all my worries and burdens. In came this electric feeling and I really think it was the holy spirit. I really smiled, and was feeling very very grateful jsut like wad leonard had said. I was smiling, after 2 months of jc life, i was smiling. I opened up my eyes, and discovered, i was sweating but my skin felt so cooling. A wonderful feeling! A tangible experience with God. Right after that, when i sat down, again what happened before seemed to be another segment of my life. Blurred. I told some ppl before, that whenever I am in ado room and after i come out. I feel that the time i spent in ado room is another segment of my life. Something apart, like exclusive put aside for God and when I exit that period of time and place I go back to my life. Of course, God is always with me, but when i speak to him, and he speaks to me, we go to another world. Another paradise in my heart. Such a beautiful and comfortable feeling. Lord, I LOVE YOU!
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