Sunday, March 19, 2006
Trust
Ok well, I decided to blog because I noticed a difference in myself, or rather in my way of thinking. I did really badly during the match this morning and coach substituted me straight away, this partly means my chances of making the team is hugely cut and he is disappointed with my performance. Simpler word - screwed. Then I return to my "why my life is like that, why did I screw up, why is life so unfair?" I just didn't really like this feeling of not getting what I want. But this time, right after I got subbed out, I just look up to the sky and said, if its your will let it be so. I surrender everything up to God and He knows what is best for me. I thought because I will have council commitments too if i get in and getting into the team would mean I'll be really tied down and everything. Perhaps, God is never foolish, today's gospel, God's foolishness is still smarter than the human wisdom. Although I still did have that lingering feeling of why my life is turning out this way. Cross I'll have to carry, but as long as I place my trust in the Lord, I will be who the Lord wants me to be.
It has been a tough start to jc, and for all those who are also struggling to come to terms with a new environment and people, place your trust in the Lord and do your best. :D
God Bless
Mark
Trust
Ok well, I decided to blog because I noticed a difference in myself, or rather in my way of thinking. I did really badly during the match this morning and coach substituted me straight away, this partly means my chances of making the team is hugely cut and he is disappointed with my performance. Simpler word - screwed. Then I return to my "why my life is like that, why did I screw up, why is life so unfair?" I just didn't really like this feeling of not getting what I want. But this time, right after I got subbed out, I just look up to the sky and said, if its your will let it be so. I surrender everything up to God and He knows what is best for me. I thought because I will have council commitments too if i get in and getting into the team would mean I'll be really tied down and everything. Perhaps, God is never foolish, today's gospel, God's foolishness is still smarter than the human wisdom. Although I still did have that lingering feeling of why my life is turning out this way. Cross I'll have to carry, but as long as I place my trust in the Lord, I will be who the Lord wants me to be.
It has been a tough start to jc, and for all those who are also struggling to come to terms with a new environment and people, place your trust in the Lord and do your best. :D
God Bless
Mark