Thursday, May 04, 2006
hey log.
im screwed because it's like 1230 already and i know that i have a choice of sleeping now or later on in maths lect but im somehow not sleeping now. ohwell aside from that.
i really miss you ppl more than i can say it. it's like, i sensed we wouldnt be seeing much of each other like how we used to so much after the o's and stuff, and yeah i feel so far from all of you. i mean even being in cj where there are so many loggers somehow i just dont even have the time to catch up with them, let alone you all who i probably wouldnt even see unless it's sunday.
it's already may and the exams are coming up. or at least the ca's are piling up already. somehow im just scared thinking about what is to come in the 2nd half of the year. i mean, like during the o's, even though the stressload was hell and stuff, at least i knew what i was heading for for the rest of the year anyway. not now though, jc life is just so hectic..ive just finally been able to start balancing and sorting my life and i realise im already halfway through my first year already.
it's almost scary when i think about how much has happened to me already in this year alone. it has affected me more than anything else of the last 16 years of my life combined. yeah im scared. i dont even know what im doing sometimes nowadays, whats with how sudden my relationships with people around me change in a matter of months. but whatever it is, looking back on this past 5 months, things come and go so fast, you know. i mean..first three months and that supposedly slack period is long gone! and in this 5 months so damn much has happened to me and im sure to all of your lives. ive seen so much of God working through everyone around me. i seen new friends come and go so fast. suddenly im mugging again even after i havent taken a proper break from the trauma of the o's. im moving abit too fast into some friendships and stuff like that. everything around me seems so unstable still. well and except log. it's amazing you know, how at the end of the week when im so drained physically emotionally and spiritually i come back to church on sunday. and i see the people i started out my spiritual healing with after confirmation, and you all are still there. there's just something deeper to it that i cant describe in words. in cj morning masses and prayers and stuff, id always think of log when we sing hymns in the morning that i remember we always love to sing when there's a guitar lying somewhere around.
im stressed, yeah i know.
and im busy and caught up in life.
but i havent forgotten this blog!
haha.
yeah and i do think about you ppl often.
being too busy to see log during the weekdays makes me look forward to seeing you ppl all the more on sundays.
praise God for log.
love ya'll loads.
anne.
hey log.
im screwed because it's like 1230 already and i know that i have a choice of sleeping now or later on in maths lect but im somehow not sleeping now. ohwell aside from that.
i really miss you ppl more than i can say it. it's like, i sensed we wouldnt be seeing much of each other like how we used to so much after the o's and stuff, and yeah i feel so far from all of you. i mean even being in cj where there are so many loggers somehow i just dont even have the time to catch up with them, let alone you all who i probably wouldnt even see unless it's sunday.
it's already may and the exams are coming up. or at least the ca's are piling up already. somehow im just scared thinking about what is to come in the 2nd half of the year. i mean, like during the o's, even though the stressload was hell and stuff, at least i knew what i was heading for for the rest of the year anyway. not now though, jc life is just so hectic..ive just finally been able to start balancing and sorting my life and i realise im already halfway through my first year already.
it's almost scary when i think about how much has happened to me already in this year alone. it has affected me more than anything else of the last 16 years of my life combined. yeah im scared. i dont even know what im doing sometimes nowadays, whats with how sudden my relationships with people around me change in a matter of months. but whatever it is, looking back on this past 5 months, things come and go so fast, you know. i mean..first three months and that supposedly slack period is long gone! and in this 5 months so damn much has happened to me and im sure to all of your lives. ive seen so much of God working through everyone around me. i seen new friends come and go so fast. suddenly im mugging again even after i havent taken a proper break from the trauma of the o's. im moving abit too fast into some friendships and stuff like that. everything around me seems so unstable still. well and except log. it's amazing you know, how at the end of the week when im so drained physically emotionally and spiritually i come back to church on sunday. and i see the people i started out my spiritual healing with after confirmation, and you all are still there. there's just something deeper to it that i cant describe in words. in cj morning masses and prayers and stuff, id always think of log when we sing hymns in the morning that i remember we always love to sing when there's a guitar lying somewhere around.
im stressed, yeah i know.
and im busy and caught up in life.
but i havent forgotten this blog!
haha.
yeah and i do think about you ppl often.
being too busy to see log during the weekdays makes me look forward to seeing you ppl all the more on sundays.
praise God for log.
love ya'll loads.
anne.