Sunday, June 18, 2006
HELLO!
after reading swee's post i just felt like blogging.
it's been a long time actually.
oh well. i don't know. i just think it's amazing how one single testimony of God's love can touch everyone. ok..it touched me deeply. and so praise God! (: it's just amazing to see God's love work a "miracle"[so to say] in someone's life..and then i suddenly look at my own life and realise. God has worked COUNTLESS. and i mean COUNTLESS miracles in my life.
quoting one of mark's blog post in 2005
"we should always remember to thank the Lord for everything we receive in our daily lives because waking up in the morning is also a miracle!"
says it all really.
and we are all united in God. united by Jesus Christ. and that's why i can look at us and say. there's nothing that's going to be too devastating for us to conquer.Jesus Christ lives in all of us! and so. there's nothing too devastating that we can't conquer also.
as i plunge into my past again.
reliving those moments when i just felt SO SO SO hopeless. when i felt that this life is dreadful. my life is just one big dreadful mess that i can't be bothered to live anymore...and then i look at myself now..with this joy that i can so clearly feel inside me..and it's a joy that no other thing can give..only God..and then i realise. that it was worth it. PAIN for a joy that can penetrate your whole soul..your subconscious..your everything..your whole body, mind and soul. and i know the pain was worth it.
i just look forward to the day that i can see smiles again as much as you.
LOG. we've come a long way. though i wasn't with you guys since the beginning...it's amazing..it's just like one year..or slightly more than that? and i feel like i've known you guys for so much longer. and i love you guys so deeply. because of the God i can see so clearly ever working in everyone of you.
praise God. (:
i don't know what to say.
i just really wanted to post all of a sudden.
and you know. it's amazing how many answers you can find when you go for mass.
really. i didn't realise it until i thought about it. it's like God is THERE. REALLY HE IS. as you sit there..and [THINK] you're stoning or being distracted by your problems and all...then thoughts come into your mind..thoughts that ease your mind..thoughts that seem to lift our burdens..amazingg powers of mass..so go for mass if you can people! i know i'm not the most frequent mass-goer but just wanted to share how God speaks to me during masses and i come out a changed person after that half an hour.
and OH. i noticed that day.
after communion, you see how quickly everyone falls to their knees to pray.
i just thought it just shows how we all can't wait to talk to God (:
oh anyway i just talked to my sister.
and i don't know. i just feel really happy. INNER INNER DEEP DEEP JOY (:
because she was sharing with me her experience in camp. just ONE DAY. ONE DAY. and. well. i can see how God's touched her. in ways quite similar to mine. and yes JOY. (:
i always wanted to go for retreat and i still want to.
and then i see how i'm watching the retreat from the outside.
how i see my sister be moved by God.
how i see my sister be moved by God THROUGH the participants.
how i can feel God right here NOW.
because i'm watching the retreat from afar.
COOL EH?
(:
praise You God.
and now i feel like crying.
that you know.
joyful crying.
i guess listening to her is like reliving my own first retreat.
and how i couldn't stop crying. for no apparent reason.
how i keep feeling these strong urges to do things that i wouldn't have done in normal circumstances.
how i keep listening to the pnw songs and just cried, and cried, and cried..seeing that light somewhere in front as i closed my eyes so tight and hugged my legs so close to myself..just listening..praying..praising God. and crying and crying..
and here i am now, telling the world of the wonders of God.
how HOW on earth could God have brought me so far
so CLOSE TO HIM.
to love HIm so.
and i really feel like crying now, not sure if any of the things above made snese to you all.
really long post anyway.
RICE.
HELLO!
after reading swee's post i just felt like blogging.
it's been a long time actually.
oh well. i don't know. i just think it's amazing how one single testimony of God's love can touch everyone. ok..it touched me deeply. and so praise God! (: it's just amazing to see God's love work a "miracle"[so to say] in someone's life..and then i suddenly look at my own life and realise. God has worked COUNTLESS. and i mean COUNTLESS miracles in my life.
quoting one of mark's blog post in 2005
"we should always remember to thank the Lord for everything we receive in our daily lives because waking up in the morning is also a miracle!"
says it all really.
and we are all united in God. united by Jesus Christ. and that's why i can look at us and say. there's nothing that's going to be too devastating for us to conquer.Jesus Christ lives in all of us! and so. there's nothing too devastating that we can't conquer also.
as i plunge into my past again.
reliving those moments when i just felt SO SO SO hopeless. when i felt that this life is dreadful. my life is just one big dreadful mess that i can't be bothered to live anymore...and then i look at myself now..with this joy that i can so clearly feel inside me..and it's a joy that no other thing can give..only God..and then i realise. that it was worth it. PAIN for a joy that can penetrate your whole soul..your subconscious..your everything..your whole body, mind and soul. and i know the pain was worth it.
i just look forward to the day that i can see smiles again as much as you.
LOG. we've come a long way. though i wasn't with you guys since the beginning...it's amazing..it's just like one year..or slightly more than that? and i feel like i've known you guys for so much longer. and i love you guys so deeply. because of the God i can see so clearly ever working in everyone of you.
praise God. (:
i don't know what to say.
i just really wanted to post all of a sudden.
and you know. it's amazing how many answers you can find when you go for mass.
really. i didn't realise it until i thought about it. it's like God is THERE. REALLY HE IS. as you sit there..and [THINK] you're stoning or being distracted by your problems and all...then thoughts come into your mind..thoughts that ease your mind..thoughts that seem to lift our burdens..amazingg powers of mass..so go for mass if you can people! i know i'm not the most frequent mass-goer but just wanted to share how God speaks to me during masses and i come out a changed person after that half an hour.
and OH. i noticed that day.
after communion, you see how quickly everyone falls to their knees to pray.
i just thought it just shows how we all can't wait to talk to God (:
oh anyway i just talked to my sister.
and i don't know. i just feel really happy. INNER INNER DEEP DEEP JOY (:
because she was sharing with me her experience in camp. just ONE DAY. ONE DAY. and. well. i can see how God's touched her. in ways quite similar to mine. and yes JOY. (:
i always wanted to go for retreat and i still want to.
and then i see how i'm watching the retreat from the outside.
how i see my sister be moved by God.
how i see my sister be moved by God THROUGH the participants.
how i can feel God right here NOW.
because i'm watching the retreat from afar.
COOL EH?
(:
praise You God.
and now i feel like crying.
that you know.
joyful crying.
i guess listening to her is like reliving my own first retreat.
and how i couldn't stop crying. for no apparent reason.
how i keep feeling these strong urges to do things that i wouldn't have done in normal circumstances.
how i keep listening to the pnw songs and just cried, and cried, and cried..seeing that light somewhere in front as i closed my eyes so tight and hugged my legs so close to myself..just listening..praying..praising God. and crying and crying..
and here i am now, telling the world of the wonders of God.
how HOW on earth could God have brought me so far
so CLOSE TO HIM.
to love HIm so.
and i really feel like crying now, not sure if any of the things above made snese to you all.
really long post anyway.
RICE.