Friday, June 16, 2006
“Life only starts after 50” A lot of people think that only when you have all the money and time in the word, will life truly begin. However for me, life began after confirmation. Today, I’m here to share my story…
In the past, if I could use 1 word to describe myself. It would be drifting. My life consisted of Sleep-School-Computer-Sleep. Repeat. Doesn’t that sound interesting? It might sound strange, but to some extent, I was contented with my life then.
I mean, my parents gave me all the freedom I wanted. I was under the radar in school. I earned friends by being good at a computer game. Most importantly, I had no problems in life right.
I have to tell you about catechism. I never liked it. Never had any friends in it. Hated waking up early. Hated having to miss Sunday cartoons. Infact, many a times, I used to just pon cathecism and go down to macs to eat and stone. I just covered up with a bunch of lies.
But eventually, my parents found out. And boy did they give me a trashing. They practically had to forced me to come for my confirmation retreat.
As it was in September, thinking that I was spending 30% of my holidays at this THING, was irritating. But, at the start of the camp. Someone said, participate. If not this retreat will mean nothing to you. And somehow. I did. I participated.
It was on the 2nd night of the retreat that something happened. A facil said, “Take a leap in faith and entrust everything to him. And you will experience a love so great. A love which will make your life hold.” What did taking a leap of faith mean? I thought back to my life and how empty it was at times. Have any of you watched Stuart Little? I had an empty space in my heart to.
Whom is that invisible man who can satisfy my every need.
Why not give it a chance.
I closed my eyes and I prayed. “God, I entrust my life in your hands.”
By the end of that session, I had a happiness which abounded through me like never before. What happened after was even more amazing. All fear inside me of talking to people vanished. Finally, I became friends with my cathecism classmates. I had a friend whom became a friend which I told everything to. From the crushed I had to the crap that I was facing in school.
That night, I was filled with courage and strength. Courage to do task which I never dreamed about and strength to finally reach out for more in life. I do not think my vocabulary is sufficient to describe the surge of emotions this very night years back.
This very event, keeps me wanting to know that man on the cross more. Eternal happiness was promised. And that feeling was so much more than everything that happened in my daily life.
My 180degree spin was then. Life became so much more meaningful. Relationships with friends and family grew stronger. Even my studies picked up. That strength and courage still follows me.
I realized what a blessing my family was. A gift from God they were. Though many a times we argued. I knew that my interest was always at the top of their mind. Home grew in warmth.
My friends in school were like, “Wow, what happened to you?” No longer was I shy. No longer was I bounded to having to impress my friends, as relationships grew deeper.
I started a youth community with other confirmants, who now support me through my life. Friends whom I trust with my life. Friends that I would sacrifice anything for. Friends that are united through one thing, Jesus Christ.
Indeed, taking a leap in faith. Trusting this man whom I never knew anything about with my thoughts, actions and being might sounds crazy. But now I realize so much more to life.
So much more Love in my life.
“Life only starts after 50” A lot of people think that only when you have all the money and time in the word, will life truly begin. However for me, life began after confirmation. Today, I’m here to share my story…
In the past, if I could use 1 word to describe myself. It would be drifting. My life consisted of Sleep-School-Computer-Sleep. Repeat. Doesn’t that sound interesting? It might sound strange, but to some extent, I was contented with my life then.
I mean, my parents gave me all the freedom I wanted. I was under the radar in school. I earned friends by being good at a computer game. Most importantly, I had no problems in life right.
I have to tell you about catechism. I never liked it. Never had any friends in it. Hated waking up early. Hated having to miss Sunday cartoons. Infact, many a times, I used to just pon cathecism and go down to macs to eat and stone. I just covered up with a bunch of lies.
But eventually, my parents found out. And boy did they give me a trashing. They practically had to forced me to come for my confirmation retreat.
As it was in September, thinking that I was spending 30% of my holidays at this THING, was irritating. But, at the start of the camp. Someone said, participate. If not this retreat will mean nothing to you. And somehow. I did. I participated.
It was on the 2nd night of the retreat that something happened. A facil said, “Take a leap in faith and entrust everything to him. And you will experience a love so great. A love which will make your life hold.” What did taking a leap of faith mean? I thought back to my life and how empty it was at times. Have any of you watched Stuart Little? I had an empty space in my heart to.
Whom is that invisible man who can satisfy my every need.
Why not give it a chance.
I closed my eyes and I prayed. “God, I entrust my life in your hands.”
By the end of that session, I had a happiness which abounded through me like never before. What happened after was even more amazing. All fear inside me of talking to people vanished. Finally, I became friends with my cathecism classmates. I had a friend whom became a friend which I told everything to. From the crushed I had to the crap that I was facing in school.
That night, I was filled with courage and strength. Courage to do task which I never dreamed about and strength to finally reach out for more in life. I do not think my vocabulary is sufficient to describe the surge of emotions this very night years back.
This very event, keeps me wanting to know that man on the cross more. Eternal happiness was promised. And that feeling was so much more than everything that happened in my daily life.
My 180degree spin was then. Life became so much more meaningful. Relationships with friends and family grew stronger. Even my studies picked up. That strength and courage still follows me.
I realized what a blessing my family was. A gift from God they were. Though many a times we argued. I knew that my interest was always at the top of their mind. Home grew in warmth.
My friends in school were like, “Wow, what happened to you?” No longer was I shy. No longer was I bounded to having to impress my friends, as relationships grew deeper.
I started a youth community with other confirmants, who now support me through my life. Friends whom I trust with my life. Friends that I would sacrifice anything for. Friends that are united through one thing, Jesus Christ.
Indeed, taking a leap in faith. Trusting this man whom I never knew anything about with my thoughts, actions and being might sounds crazy. But now I realize so much more to life.
So much more Love in my life.