Monday, September 04, 2006
SHINE JESUS SHINE FILL THIS LAND WITH THE FATHERS GLORY..
haha i never fail to zhao sia (if thats how you spell it) at that last bit, stupid sore throat. but fnun fun anyways (:
today it started out a bit weird, and i didn't really feel any spiritual thing. to be honest nothing really hit it over the head (with a brick!) until that kneeling bit for the blessed sacrament.
it rain and rain showers of blessing, the rain was refreshing (:
we knelt, the gravel road is even but hard and pokey.
i was just enjoying the rain and the presence of god that i felt around me but my heart wasn't really... IN to the whole thing. I was trying hard(maybe too hard) to feel something because i knew that God was there.
Strangely enough Oliver who was kneeling in front of me was feeling the effects of the gravel road, without any 'cushion' your knees do tend to ache and hurt though it gets a little numbe with slight sharp pains if you move. anyways, he kept slipping back so that his knees wouldn't hurt.
once he slipped back,
i thought to myself that i should take my slippers off and offer it to him.
but i didnt, thinking that he'll be fine without it.
twice.
i was hoping someone like kris would do that instead.
but she didnt.
my heart was like, i should! i should do it!just take the damn thing off and offer it to him so as to make it not so painful already
what harm will it do to me? nothing! absolutely nothing! so why the heck am i not doing it? i have no idea!
i got quite frustrated with myself. i wondered to myself why was it so hard just to do something nice.
I tried to ignore it really, trying to convince myself that he really is fine and he'll live without a slipper. haha but no! i couldn't worship God at all why this was like... scratching the back of my brain.
then thrice(the whole sequence sounds a tad familiar doesnt it? )
finally, i took the 'chance' i eventually decided to take off the silly ol' slipper. i tapped him on the back and offered, partly relieved i finally got that off my chest. Funnily enough, he just waved it off with his hand as if saying that he didn't need it. was perfectly fine with it because i tried (: yay for that. so i looked at the slipper and it looked at me and i smiled. (at the slipper yes! but for God (: )
then a little while later he decided to use it. and ho ho ho! guess who was happy! oliver of course. his knees are relieved. haha. okok jes was really quite happy. suddenly, a lot of happy thoughts ran through my head and a lot of things linked up (: i cried happy cry of course (:
this small incident really made quite a difference (thank you liver)
It just goes to show how if i just take the step n a lot of things in my life and stopped holding back, i might fail at first but when it suceeds it feels damn good. i could give you many interpretations of this, for linking mini thoughts to larger things in life is my forte. haha.
after that, everything went up. not to mention, seeing a lot of my old IJ friends really topped it off. knowing that God touched so many IJ girls, bringing them all back, maybe it was all the familarity and stuff about IJ that i missed (: Then again, it always rocks when you see your school mates in a spiritual sense ( rather than all that IJ low belt, ponning, slack and stuff like that) there is a certain serenity to that.
ok. i think thats my sharing. long huh? BLOG VOMIT!
i have much more to share but another time (:
Thank you all for a lovely time today and thank God for the rain.
Praise God because he's always there hugging you. (:
-jes loves you.
SHINE JESUS SHINE FILL THIS LAND WITH THE FATHERS GLORY..
haha i never fail to zhao sia (if thats how you spell it) at that last bit, stupid sore throat. but fnun fun anyways (:
today it started out a bit weird, and i didn't really feel any spiritual thing. to be honest nothing really hit it over the head (with a brick!) until that kneeling bit for the blessed sacrament.
it rain and rain showers of blessing, the rain was refreshing (:
we knelt, the gravel road is even but hard and pokey.
i was just enjoying the rain and the presence of god that i felt around me but my heart wasn't really... IN to the whole thing. I was trying hard(maybe too hard) to feel something because i knew that God was there.
Strangely enough Oliver who was kneeling in front of me was feeling the effects of the gravel road, without any 'cushion' your knees do tend to ache and hurt though it gets a little numbe with slight sharp pains if you move. anyways, he kept slipping back so that his knees wouldn't hurt.
once he slipped back,
i thought to myself that i should take my slippers off and offer it to him.
but i didnt, thinking that he'll be fine without it.
twice.
i was hoping someone like kris would do that instead.
but she didnt.
my heart was like, i should! i should do it!just take the damn thing off and offer it to him so as to make it not so painful already
what harm will it do to me? nothing! absolutely nothing! so why the heck am i not doing it? i have no idea!
i got quite frustrated with myself. i wondered to myself why was it so hard just to do something nice.
I tried to ignore it really, trying to convince myself that he really is fine and he'll live without a slipper. haha but no! i couldn't worship God at all why this was like... scratching the back of my brain.
then thrice(the whole sequence sounds a tad familiar doesnt it? )
finally, i took the 'chance' i eventually decided to take off the silly ol' slipper. i tapped him on the back and offered, partly relieved i finally got that off my chest. Funnily enough, he just waved it off with his hand as if saying that he didn't need it. was perfectly fine with it because i tried (: yay for that. so i looked at the slipper and it looked at me and i smiled. (at the slipper yes! but for God (: )
then a little while later he decided to use it. and ho ho ho! guess who was happy! oliver of course. his knees are relieved. haha. okok jes was really quite happy. suddenly, a lot of happy thoughts ran through my head and a lot of things linked up (: i cried happy cry of course (:
this small incident really made quite a difference (thank you liver)
It just goes to show how if i just take the step n a lot of things in my life and stopped holding back, i might fail at first but when it suceeds it feels damn good. i could give you many interpretations of this, for linking mini thoughts to larger things in life is my forte. haha.
after that, everything went up. not to mention, seeing a lot of my old IJ friends really topped it off. knowing that God touched so many IJ girls, bringing them all back, maybe it was all the familarity and stuff about IJ that i missed (: Then again, it always rocks when you see your school mates in a spiritual sense ( rather than all that IJ low belt, ponning, slack and stuff like that) there is a certain serenity to that.
ok. i think thats my sharing. long huh? BLOG VOMIT!
i have much more to share but another time (:
Thank you all for a lovely time today and thank God for the rain.
Praise God because he's always there hugging you. (:
-jes loves you.