Saturday, May 31, 2008
This road that I'm taking twists and turns
My life my chance turning dreams into reality
Down this path faced with so many things
Sometimes I feel like giving up and turn away
Can't seem to go on
And I've been thru' this before
Now where am I? Where do I stand?
A little lost here
But I'll remember
All those times you've brought me through
I'd be a fool to give up cos' the goal is near
I'll move on I'll go on
Lord I will take your hand
And you will guide me along
Survive thru' this storm
So I say come what may
I'll hold on to my hope
Yes I will walk down this road
And my passion drive will lead me on
Here I am Once again caught in the rain
Looking back I've come so far and I want to carry on
Take a step at a time it's alright
Even through this rain
I want to smile again
Don't hold back now
And I've been thru' this before
Now where am I? Where do I stand?
A little lost here
But I'll remember
All those times you've bought me thru'
I can feel the sun shining down on me
Here I am Here I am
Lord I will take your hand
And you will guide me along
Survive thru' this storm
So I say come what may
I'll hold on to my hope
Yes I will walk down this road
And my passion drive will lead me on
von.
Monday, May 05, 2008
hi all! yes i did promise to post about lent, but i'll put it on the teachings blog instead.
i know sunday's sharing i didn't say much but i wrote quite a lot on my journal so now i shall share that with yall.
I feel very weird ever since I enlisted into NS. I feel a lot more concious of my thoughts and feelings but less of my physical self. NS was more of a mental challenge than anything during my BMT days. Knowing that i won't be able to go for OCS, then i had to convince myself that hey, i still gotta spend a stupid 7 weeks in tekong. Guys reading this, I know I'm blessed being pes C but hey, there was a period of time when i was all ready to chiong sua. After finishing that 7 weeks, i come out feeling even more weird. I become very concious of my own feelings that I can sometimes really feel God's presence yet sometimes its just empty - real emptiness. its scary when you sit down and you feel yourself, i wonder what was it like when God formed me in the womb, i wonder what was it like before I was born. Where did this conciousness come about, when did God breathe life into me? It becomes so real, yet so far and profound to grasp sometimes. It is because of this that has reinforced my own belief in Him, in my soul and His reigning in me. So when im awake i feel like im just letting my body does what it is supposed to do and my mind wanders and wanders away. Weird period of time for me but in the silence of the night as I pray, I slowly become concious of my thoughts and my actions and try to hold them together again. Yet its so weird because it is when i am most concious and in prayer that I suddenly lose track and feel of God. Perhaps we do not have to search for him, when we are in stillness he comes within us.
K enough of that funny chim feelings haha. I feel im blessed with trust in the Lord. From a few years back when i worry about every single thing, that makes my life so so burdened and hard to pass by, to now when I really just lift everything up to God and trust in what He has for me. Just that day when i was fretting over why no scholarship boards called me up, then i suddenly felt that hey, its been a long time since i've been worrying about something. so ok, i think i went for mass and ado and cleared it up. I wish to really share this feeling and faith with yall but part of it has also got to do with your own experiences and whether you are willing to let go.
I just picked up Thaddeus' book and it never fails to make me tear. go read it. God's work, really.
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This road that I'm taking twists and turns
My life my chance turning dreams into reality
Down this path faced with so many things
Sometimes I feel like giving up and turn away
Can't seem to go on
And I've been thru' this before
Now where am I? Where do I stand?
A little lost here
But I'll remember
All those times you've brought me through
I'd be a fool to give up cos' the goal is near
I'll move on I'll go on
Lord I will take your hand
And you will guide me along
Survive thru' this storm
So I say come what may
I'll hold on to my hope
Yes I will walk down this road
And my passion drive will lead me on
Here I am Once again caught in the rain
Looking back I've come so far and I want to carry on
Take a step at a time it's alright
Even through this rain
I want to smile again
Don't hold back now
And I've been thru' this before
Now where am I? Where do I stand?
A little lost here
But I'll remember
All those times you've bought me thru'
I can feel the sun shining down on me
Here I am Here I am
Lord I will take your hand
And you will guide me along
Survive thru' this storm
So I say come what may
I'll hold on to my hope
Yes I will walk down this road
And my passion drive will lead me on
von.
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______________________________________________Monday, May 05, 2008
hi all! yes i did promise to post about lent, but i'll put it on the teachings blog instead.
i know sunday's sharing i didn't say much but i wrote quite a lot on my journal so now i shall share that with yall.
I feel very weird ever since I enlisted into NS. I feel a lot more concious of my thoughts and feelings but less of my physical self. NS was more of a mental challenge than anything during my BMT days. Knowing that i won't be able to go for OCS, then i had to convince myself that hey, i still gotta spend a stupid 7 weeks in tekong. Guys reading this, I know I'm blessed being pes C but hey, there was a period of time when i was all ready to chiong sua. After finishing that 7 weeks, i come out feeling even more weird. I become very concious of my own feelings that I can sometimes really feel God's presence yet sometimes its just empty - real emptiness. its scary when you sit down and you feel yourself, i wonder what was it like when God formed me in the womb, i wonder what was it like before I was born. Where did this conciousness come about, when did God breathe life into me? It becomes so real, yet so far and profound to grasp sometimes. It is because of this that has reinforced my own belief in Him, in my soul and His reigning in me. So when im awake i feel like im just letting my body does what it is supposed to do and my mind wanders and wanders away. Weird period of time for me but in the silence of the night as I pray, I slowly become concious of my thoughts and my actions and try to hold them together again. Yet its so weird because it is when i am most concious and in prayer that I suddenly lose track and feel of God. Perhaps we do not have to search for him, when we are in stillness he comes within us.
K enough of that funny chim feelings haha. I feel im blessed with trust in the Lord. From a few years back when i worry about every single thing, that makes my life so so burdened and hard to pass by, to now when I really just lift everything up to God and trust in what He has for me. Just that day when i was fretting over why no scholarship boards called me up, then i suddenly felt that hey, its been a long time since i've been worrying about something. so ok, i think i went for mass and ado and cleared it up. I wish to really share this feeling and faith with yall but part of it has also got to do with your own experiences and whether you are willing to let go.
I just picked up Thaddeus' book and it never fails to make me tear. go read it. God's work, really.
mark