Friday, June 20, 2008
hello log:)
first of all i must say that i really feel distance helps love grow stronger. being away from you all most sundays and having to miss almost all sessions because of catechism really taught me to appreciate every one of you so much more. i mean, i do tell my sec1s stories of log and all the things i've experienced with you all so i won't be surprised if my class knows you all well enough by the time their confi camp comes round:)
anyway, i spent the three weeks prior to confi camp in quite a panic because i was asked to do a p&w session for this camp when i knew well enough i wasn't in the right spiritual and emotional state of mind to lead a session for the confirmants. so it's like, every day on the bus to meet friends, or here and there i'd just take out my notebook and stare at an empty page willing for words to fill it up but nothing came. didn't pray, just stared at an empty notebook page trying to force something out. nothing nothing nothing for 3 weeks and by the final spiritual prep the night before camp i gave up any hope in preparing a session and was about to walk up to michelle & evelyn to ask them if they could help me take over session when fr b. called me over to help him out with something. quite a no. of times here and there that night i tried going over to tell them i needed them to take over session but somehow someone would get in the way and interrupt me and prevent me from giving up my session.
i was damn pekchek already la i mean that night, but now that i think about it, i'm glad God did everything and anything to prevent me from giving up the session. because if i did give it up, i wouldn't have realised that i was capable of doing more than what i thought i could, i wouldn't have realised that God had chosen me to do His work long before i even accepted it, i wouldn't have gotten the faith i seemed to have lost this whole year since mission trip back in me, and i wouldn't have gotten to stay up with vonn in the middle of the night, accompanying her as we planned our sessions together on the night of day 2. (thanks von btw)
retreat was an emotional rollercoaster with the extreme downs especially on day 2 and the high end of 3rd day onwards til the end of confi camp. but tired as i am physically and emotionally i would go through it all over again knowing the amazing results that came out of it and the great great great depth of log ♥ i'd feel :D:D
it's been only 3 days since confi camp ended and i'm still feeling drained from it, but i gotta go off to holy spirit confi camp tomorrow already. this time i think the cross's different, more in the form of going into this camp knowing it's well out of my comfort zone. it's not sfx, not where i comfortably belong, not where loggers and sfxians are, basically i'm going to this next camp with a leap of faith lah. scared, but i'll add log shirt in my bag for comfort :D thanks for today you all, zohan was a sibeh stupid show and waste moneh & all (shouldve watched get smart:/), but i feel great spending the last day before going to my next camp with you all. thanks, ♥ you all long time and i'll be praying canteen goes well:)
anne.
hello log:)
first of all i must say that i really feel distance helps love grow stronger. being away from you all most sundays and having to miss almost all sessions because of catechism really taught me to appreciate every one of you so much more. i mean, i do tell my sec1s stories of log and all the things i've experienced with you all so i won't be surprised if my class knows you all well enough by the time their confi camp comes round:)
anyway, i spent the three weeks prior to confi camp in quite a panic because i was asked to do a p&w session for this camp when i knew well enough i wasn't in the right spiritual and emotional state of mind to lead a session for the confirmants. so it's like, every day on the bus to meet friends, or here and there i'd just take out my notebook and stare at an empty page willing for words to fill it up but nothing came. didn't pray, just stared at an empty notebook page trying to force something out. nothing nothing nothing for 3 weeks and by the final spiritual prep the night before camp i gave up any hope in preparing a session and was about to walk up to michelle & evelyn to ask them if they could help me take over session when fr b. called me over to help him out with something. quite a no. of times here and there that night i tried going over to tell them i needed them to take over session but somehow someone would get in the way and interrupt me and prevent me from giving up my session.
i was damn pekchek already la i mean that night, but now that i think about it, i'm glad God did everything and anything to prevent me from giving up the session. because if i did give it up, i wouldn't have realised that i was capable of doing more than what i thought i could, i wouldn't have realised that God had chosen me to do His work long before i even accepted it, i wouldn't have gotten the faith i seemed to have lost this whole year since mission trip back in me, and i wouldn't have gotten to stay up with vonn in the middle of the night, accompanying her as we planned our sessions together on the night of day 2. (thanks von btw)
retreat was an emotional rollercoaster with the extreme downs especially on day 2 and the high end of 3rd day onwards til the end of confi camp. but tired as i am physically and emotionally i would go through it all over again knowing the amazing results that came out of it and the great great great depth of log ♥ i'd feel :D:D
it's been only 3 days since confi camp ended and i'm still feeling drained from it, but i gotta go off to holy spirit confi camp tomorrow already. this time i think the cross's different, more in the form of going into this camp knowing it's well out of my comfort zone. it's not sfx, not where i comfortably belong, not where loggers and sfxians are, basically i'm going to this next camp with a leap of faith lah. scared, but i'll add log shirt in my bag for comfort :D thanks for today you all, zohan was a sibeh stupid show and waste moneh & all (shouldve watched get smart:/), but i feel great spending the last day before going to my next camp with you all. thanks, ♥ you all long time and i'll be praying canteen goes well:)
anne.