You guys are an inspiration :)
Hello :)
Guess who?
I'm slightly intimidated that i'm posting here after what must have been at least a 2-3year no-show and after having been back for just a mere 2 weeks. BUT, I just really want to tell you all this.
You guys are an inspiration to me :) I am someone who has just stepped out of a phase in my life where I felt that I could do without God, doubting even that He existed, and I tried, I tried very hard to prove to myself that I was right, that He wasn't there, and that I could live the life that I wanted, because so many others in the world are doing just that. (The story behind this can come another time).
But all of you remind me that I'm not alone, not alone in chasing things that are not of this earth, intangible, yet so real to us at times, not alone in making the choice, the choice to take the road less travelled and not just follow what everyone else is doing (which is all too easy at times, well at least easier in a obvious way, but I know now that God's way is always easiest! though in a much less obvious way), all of you remind me that it IS real, that God IS there, that all those moments in my life when I believed He was there, I wasn't just making that up, because all of you are living testimonies of His work :) And all of you also reminded of what it's like being part of a community, how it's difficult doing it alone, because God often uses the people around you to move you.
I can't begin to explain how much of a spiritual revival Easter was for me. And I guess that sharing can wait for another time.
Another thing, thanks for session today, I thought it was really good :) Just something out of personal experience, personally I like to write it out after reading the bible. I thought it was quite cool that you guys talked about reading the bible today because recently, in my darkest times, in my desperation to make sense of what was going on, I dug out my bible searching for answers, while as you guys said, God doesn't really work that way, you can't flip open your bible looking for answers, but that event did help move my bible out of the depths of my cupboard onto my bedside table, and I've been doing my own version of bible reading everyday for what has been almost 2 weeks now (hope I can keep it up). And I just think that God speaks to me more when I write it down, of course it's different for different people, but you know, if silent contemplation doesn't really work for you, try writing it out :) and oh, I love the part about letting the bible use you, and not you using the bible. I guess that's no more flipping my bible for answers from me.
AH this post came out much longer than I thought it would.
Anyway, hope everyone has a blessed week :)
Love,
Clarice
5 Comments:
praise God rice! (: great to have you back too, and i agree about the writing part, its a good practice if you find it helpful.
i think its a miracle that you managed to remember the log blog password and username though :D
-Soo
i don't know if i sound pompous saying this. i don't know every person in community that well. and i definitely don't know u well, rice. i hardly even see u lol. but even then, i could recognize that there was a palpable sense of joy that u exuded. it's not like u burst out in laughter or u jumped ard energetically or anything. there was just a radiance that is not simply ordinary happiness.
now that u've attributed it to a re-discovery of god, it all makes sense. we change when we find christ - again or otherwise. sometimes we don't see god's hand in our life and we need another to point it out to us. so let me, who knows so little about you, point it out: u glowed today =)
praise God and his transformative power, and welcome back!
By 
MeL,
April 11, 2010 7:04 PM
the username & password was easy to figure out if you know the old one before it became gmail. OOPS! too loud.ahaha
praise god!
i think its even more amazing how you can come down to the decision and make the choice to turn back to God :) i would think its hard decision, at least personally for me. awesome awesome awesome awesome.
you're like an easter surprise! it was easter virgil and suddenly suprise! its rice! hahahahahahahah
By poey,
April 12, 2010 8:04 PM
Hello :),
Praise God! I was actually delighted when you were back because I truly saw in every logger the gladness & happiness of your return for the past 2 sessions.
I just want to say, not because I just got confirmed a year back but just my journey with god that at times we may look so stupid believing in god while other's look at you in a weird way, it is definitely so worth it. And as what we learnt in YMC retreat, that we should all be fools for Christ, I personally think we should all be too
I am sure all the other young loggers aka loglets also agree with me that we are all so excited to get to know you and to grow as a community together. And Your Christmas card is still in Log room if I am not wrong! ;)
Greg =)