Sunday, April 03, 2011
i went to e park. walked there w smalltsui. chatted a little along e way. then i went to sit in e shaded area w benches. i brought my laptop cos i intended to write, as my form of rest. in my mind, there'd be a nice breeze and i'd happily and smoothly write out smth.
but it was warm and humid. AND THERE WERE MOSQUITOES ._. so yea i couldn't rly write anything much. writing's like tt. gotta hv e inspiration. seems like my muse din't rly want me to write anything.
so i went to swing a while =) e swing was creaky so i felt rly self-conscious. but i'm still glad tt i retained my swinging skills haha. altho it's definitely much easier now tt i hv longer legs than i used to when i was 11 (tho not tt much longer really). when i saw ppl coming into e park, tt was too much shame for me so lol i quickly got off e swing.
walkg back to my usual spot, i realized where tsui was (i din't see him at first) - at some bench at e other corner of e park. lol and i wondered if he saw me swinging. which he did ._. so. haha. oh well.
then i just sat in the bench and daydreamed. i thought abt how i'd like to be on the grand canyon. tt'd be an awesome place to write. i thot abt e small gravel-like stones on e floor and imagined them swirling in e air and streaming away. i thot abt tmr's moot, and prob having to take cab to sch later. i thot abt whether i was properly resting or not. i thot abt how places like these make e world seem a little less screwed up than newspapers purport it to be. i thot abt my dogs and how i like to play w them aft doing too much work at home.
then i saw tsui sitting at e top of e spiderweb thingie. it was ard 12.25 so i walked over and sat down on e lower rung. then we chatted a little while. we saw 317 coming by and i expected to see quite a few ppl dropping off. but no one appeared. after a while, tsui went to grab his bag and we walked back to e log room.
when rice started her session, i liked it immediately. i liked e idea of findg god in little pockets of our day, and in moments apart from e exclusive times tt we set apart for prayer, mass and church activities. cos i think he's present even in all e 'non-spiritual' things tt we do. and we shud be aware of his presence even in those times. but also, i liked it cos i myself relate to tt. i find tt it is in these little pockets - walkg from one place to another, doing some mindless chore, bathing etc - tt i receive e most brilliant inspirations and wonderful ideas. in a sense, those are e moments when i listen e most to god. it's only recently tho, tt i'm directing these moments to him.
so when we journaled, i wrote down a list of stuff tt i do to rest (and find god) and take my mind off e hustle of life. i narrowed it down to 2 options (cos of e limitations of time and resources) - (1) writing, and (2) having a nice chat w a friend. one of them didn't rly happen. i'm glad e other did =)
thx for e awesome session rice! sry for making u buy xiaolongbao haha i HONESTLY (i swear) tot it was just an idea to collect our lunch wishes or smth. lucky i didn't put crab or geylang frog porridge or some other troublesome stuff haha.
mel
i went to e park. walked there w smalltsui. chatted a little along e way. then i went to sit in e shaded area w benches. i brought my laptop cos i intended to write, as my form of rest. in my mind, there'd be a nice breeze and i'd happily and smoothly write out smth.
but it was warm and humid. AND THERE WERE MOSQUITOES ._. so yea i couldn't rly write anything much. writing's like tt. gotta hv e inspiration. seems like my muse din't rly want me to write anything.
so i went to swing a while =) e swing was creaky so i felt rly self-conscious. but i'm still glad tt i retained my swinging skills haha. altho it's definitely much easier now tt i hv longer legs than i used to when i was 11 (tho not tt much longer really). when i saw ppl coming into e park, tt was too much shame for me so lol i quickly got off e swing.
walkg back to my usual spot, i realized where tsui was (i din't see him at first) - at some bench at e other corner of e park. lol and i wondered if he saw me swinging. which he did ._. so. haha. oh well.
then i just sat in the bench and daydreamed. i thought abt how i'd like to be on the grand canyon. tt'd be an awesome place to write. i thot abt e small gravel-like stones on e floor and imagined them swirling in e air and streaming away. i thot abt tmr's moot, and prob having to take cab to sch later. i thot abt whether i was properly resting or not. i thot abt how places like these make e world seem a little less screwed up than newspapers purport it to be. i thot abt my dogs and how i like to play w them aft doing too much work at home.
then i saw tsui sitting at e top of e spiderweb thingie. it was ard 12.25 so i walked over and sat down on e lower rung. then we chatted a little while. we saw 317 coming by and i expected to see quite a few ppl dropping off. but no one appeared. after a while, tsui went to grab his bag and we walked back to e log room.
when rice started her session, i liked it immediately. i liked e idea of findg god in little pockets of our day, and in moments apart from e exclusive times tt we set apart for prayer, mass and church activities. cos i think he's present even in all e 'non-spiritual' things tt we do. and we shud be aware of his presence even in those times. but also, i liked it cos i myself relate to tt. i find tt it is in these little pockets - walkg from one place to another, doing some mindless chore, bathing etc - tt i receive e most brilliant inspirations and wonderful ideas. in a sense, those are e moments when i listen e most to god. it's only recently tho, tt i'm directing these moments to him.
so when we journaled, i wrote down a list of stuff tt i do to rest (and find god) and take my mind off e hustle of life. i narrowed it down to 2 options (cos of e limitations of time and resources) - (1) writing, and (2) having a nice chat w a friend. one of them didn't rly happen. i'm glad e other did =)
thx for e awesome session rice! sry for making u buy xiaolongbao haha i HONESTLY (i swear) tot it was just an idea to collect our lunch wishes or smth. lucky i didn't put crab or geylang frog porridge or some other troublesome stuff haha.
mel
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lol oh i realize i left out e god element. hm. nth much very tangible. i don't think it was an experience. more like an awareness. and communicating w him. while on e swing, while daydreamg, while chattg and walkg and stuff. yea.
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