Friday, October 07, 2011
Decisions!
Hello everyone :)
Remember to blog please, because it's an important part of Greg's spirituality!
Anyway, I've been reading The Great Divorce by CS Lewis, and as with all CS Lewis' books it's been an insightful read. Here's a passage that I came across recently -
"There is but one good; that is God. Everything else is good when it looks to Him and bad when it turns from Him."
I think over the past few years, when this whole "where is your life going" started for me, and I hit a quarter-life crisis, trying to find my direction, I found myself constantly having to make decisions, and these decisions became increasingly significant in terms of changing the course of my future. And I have found myself time, and time again, so much so that I am exhausted, asking God, "God what do You want me to do, just tell me and I will do it" And often, He remains silent (or perhaps I remain blind, or stubborn), probably because He wants me to figure it out and make the choice myself.
But in this passage here, I feel it's really simple, what is right or "good" is so easily judged by whether it points towards God or away from Him. I have had to make so many decisions of late, taking on more commitments, dropping commitments, what to sacrifice for what.. And at some point I was just jaded, jaded for having so many things to control and engineer in my life. But of course, I never was the engineer, I just thought I was. And this passage was a good reminder that nothing is good/bad in itself, none of the choices I have to make are good/bad, it can only be defined in terms of its relationship with God.
I recently made the decision to leave Frontier, which is the company thing, which is also the class that I run off to at 2pm on Sundays, and I just sent the email in today. And I just feel so joyful, because I feel like I am free, I feel like for such a long time now, this company thing has bound me, bound me into feeling like I need it to ensure that I am going somewhere. Which is why I held onto it so tightly for so long. It didn't even really make me happy. And I will always remember this idea (but I can't remember where I got it from) that God loves you and at the very fundamental level, He wants you to be HAPPY. This does not necessarily come in form of ways you might actually WANT and realise, but He does, and when making decisions, very fundamentally if you can get to that very place inside your heart, where God resides, and find out what gives you that peace and joy that God desires so much for You and has already built you for... You would know what to do. And fear so often gets in the way of that because so often God works in ways that this world cannot understand, and it means taking a leap of faith time and time again. - Story of my life.
Sorry this blog post is not very well organised, I'm typing off the top of my head. But I think what I'm basically saying that I have learnt through my experiences of having to make tough decisions - is that - always choose the decision that gives you the most peace, always being wary of the fact that the devil is extremely skilled at pretending to be that option, but having walked thus far with Jesus in the course of our lives already, I believe I can recognise true joy that comes from the Father when I experience it. And right now, after having let go of this chain binding me down, keeping me away from the things I really want to do, things that give me joy, I know now I have made the right choice, and I thank Jesus for helping me make this decision :)
Decisions!
Hello everyone :)
Remember to blog please, because it's an important part of Greg's spirituality!
Anyway, I've been reading The Great Divorce by CS Lewis, and as with all CS Lewis' books it's been an insightful read. Here's a passage that I came across recently -
"There is but one good; that is God. Everything else is good when it looks to Him and bad when it turns from Him."
I think over the past few years, when this whole "where is your life going" started for me, and I hit a quarter-life crisis, trying to find my direction, I found myself constantly having to make decisions, and these decisions became increasingly significant in terms of changing the course of my future. And I have found myself time, and time again, so much so that I am exhausted, asking God, "God what do You want me to do, just tell me and I will do it" And often, He remains silent (or perhaps I remain blind, or stubborn), probably because He wants me to figure it out and make the choice myself.
But in this passage here, I feel it's really simple, what is right or "good" is so easily judged by whether it points towards God or away from Him. I have had to make so many decisions of late, taking on more commitments, dropping commitments, what to sacrifice for what.. And at some point I was just jaded, jaded for having so many things to control and engineer in my life. But of course, I never was the engineer, I just thought I was. And this passage was a good reminder that nothing is good/bad in itself, none of the choices I have to make are good/bad, it can only be defined in terms of its relationship with God.
I recently made the decision to leave Frontier, which is the company thing, which is also the class that I run off to at 2pm on Sundays, and I just sent the email in today. And I just feel so joyful, because I feel like I am free, I feel like for such a long time now, this company thing has bound me, bound me into feeling like I need it to ensure that I am going somewhere. Which is why I held onto it so tightly for so long. It didn't even really make me happy. And I will always remember this idea (but I can't remember where I got it from) that God loves you and at the very fundamental level, He wants you to be HAPPY. This does not necessarily come in form of ways you might actually WANT and realise, but He does, and when making decisions, very fundamentally if you can get to that very place inside your heart, where God resides, and find out what gives you that peace and joy that God desires so much for You and has already built you for... You would know what to do. And fear so often gets in the way of that because so often God works in ways that this world cannot understand, and it means taking a leap of faith time and time again. - Story of my life.
Sorry this blog post is not very well organised, I'm typing off the top of my head. But I think what I'm basically saying that I have learnt through my experiences of having to make tough decisions - is that - always choose the decision that gives you the most peace, always being wary of the fact that the devil is extremely skilled at pretending to be that option, but having walked thus far with Jesus in the course of our lives already, I believe I can recognise true joy that comes from the Father when I experience it. And right now, after having let go of this chain binding me down, keeping me away from the things I really want to do, things that give me joy, I know now I have made the right choice, and I thank Jesus for helping me make this decision :)
1 Comments:
yay praise God! thanks for sharing rice! this means that you'll be staying all the way for sessions and joining us for lunch after right :D
Soo
