Saturday, October 01, 2011
For the lost and confused.

For the lost and confused, just a random reflection from my past that I thought I'd share.

Periods when you feel like you're walking in the dark, and every action you take is just, really, a stab in the dark, you don't know where you're going, and you just don't feel like Jesus is there to guide you anymore. These periods of time actually are the most comforting, if you think about it, you know that God won't abandon you, ever. These periods of time, for me, were periods of time when I felt the most free, because I have zero control = God has 100% control. I don't even need to think or make decisions, because I don't even know where I'm going. After a while, and much reflection, I just gave up trying to control things, and just let it go, and the journey just got a lot more enjoyable after you manage to work through all that frustration of feeling lost.

I felt this lost, and stabbing in the dark, feeling the most in the period of time before I got this job at O School, I was anxious, and frustrated because I did not know why God would give me such a gift, but seem to remain so silent on how I am going to use it. But well, look where I am now :) I don't know where this will continue to take me, but I'm not afraid because I know Jesus is in control, especially when I have none :)


Love,
Rice

2 Comments:

P.S. I love the new template Jes! Thank you :) It's so much cleaner and nicer to look at :)

By  LoG, October 01, 2011 2:15 AM  

thank you for the sharing rice! =) i feel the same way here sometimes. the more i hold on to like my days here, the least i enjoy them. when i rely on God here in Manchester, I enjoy it a lot more!! -mark

By  mark.tang, October 02, 2011 4:47 AM  

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