Friday, November 18, 2011
Hi guys,
Rice here. I thought I'd just let you all know what's been going on with me. I miss you all alot, and I don't just say this, because I do, I miss spending that quality time with you guys, in the form of session, and God-filled Sunday morning, cause those days never fail to fill me again with God's love, grace and hope for the following week. Of late, I've been feeling like my weeks are increasingly welded into one.. it's just been day after day, no day to mark rest. (Maybe that's why God wanted to give us the Sabbath, maybe it was for our own good :/) In any case, I'm not complaining, because dance and job-wise it's just been amazingly blessed as always. In that area, commitment has become heavier, I now have my own class, and I now help teach at certain schools as well. It would seem like it is starting to pick up. And I think that is the most frustrating thing, because while it is starting to pick up, I find myself waking up every morning, guilty, for neglecting my work, worrying, that the consequences would be irreversible, tired, missing my friends, my family, sometimes feeling lonely, trying my very best to reach out to God, the words come out of my mouth (or my mind) I call out to Jesus to come save me, to be with me, but my mind just can't seem to hang on to Him recently. It just floats around.
I guess that is kind of what I've been up to lately. As I know you guys know, exams are next week, I am also in the midst of preparing for O School recital which is also next week, and right in the middle of my exams. I know it sounds really crazy, but to tell the truth, I don't even think about it. My exam preparation have gone so far as half a chapter so far. So often I have found myself asking myself, HOW ON EARTH AM I GOING TO DO THIS? But every time I will hear a voice in my head saying "I will do it." Of course, there is no excuse for being lazy and neglecting my work. But somehow I believe, that Jesus will help me. Like He always has. :)
I know everyone's probably pretty stressed, it's crunch time for many of us. I hope that in the area of exams, if I, in the situation that I am in, can still find it in me, to let go of that bit of control, and trust in God, I hope all of you who feel tired and drained can remember to look back on all those moments when you felt you absolutely couldn't do it, and look at where you are now, and realise, that when you have that little control.. all that's left to do, is trust God :)
Although I can't physically be as present, (I have rehearsals on Sundays).. I send my love, and God's love to all of you :)
Rice
Hi guys,
Rice here. I thought I'd just let you all know what's been going on with me. I miss you all alot, and I don't just say this, because I do, I miss spending that quality time with you guys, in the form of session, and God-filled Sunday morning, cause those days never fail to fill me again with God's love, grace and hope for the following week. Of late, I've been feeling like my weeks are increasingly welded into one.. it's just been day after day, no day to mark rest. (Maybe that's why God wanted to give us the Sabbath, maybe it was for our own good :/) In any case, I'm not complaining, because dance and job-wise it's just been amazingly blessed as always. In that area, commitment has become heavier, I now have my own class, and I now help teach at certain schools as well. It would seem like it is starting to pick up. And I think that is the most frustrating thing, because while it is starting to pick up, I find myself waking up every morning, guilty, for neglecting my work, worrying, that the consequences would be irreversible, tired, missing my friends, my family, sometimes feeling lonely, trying my very best to reach out to God, the words come out of my mouth (or my mind) I call out to Jesus to come save me, to be with me, but my mind just can't seem to hang on to Him recently. It just floats around.
I guess that is kind of what I've been up to lately. As I know you guys know, exams are next week, I am also in the midst of preparing for O School recital which is also next week, and right in the middle of my exams. I know it sounds really crazy, but to tell the truth, I don't even think about it. My exam preparation have gone so far as half a chapter so far. So often I have found myself asking myself, HOW ON EARTH AM I GOING TO DO THIS? But every time I will hear a voice in my head saying "I will do it." Of course, there is no excuse for being lazy and neglecting my work. But somehow I believe, that Jesus will help me. Like He always has. :)
I know everyone's probably pretty stressed, it's crunch time for many of us. I hope that in the area of exams, if I, in the situation that I am in, can still find it in me, to let go of that bit of control, and trust in God, I hope all of you who feel tired and drained can remember to look back on all those moments when you felt you absolutely couldn't do it, and look at where you are now, and realise, that when you have that little control.. all that's left to do, is trust God :)
Although I can't physically be as present, (I have rehearsals on Sundays).. I send my love, and God's love to all of you :)
Rice
1 Comments:
I like your post! and miss you rice! just make sure you spend christmas with us! (:
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jes,
November 19, 2011 1:32 AM