a new step
hi guys, joel here. as i told you guys on friday i've been thinking about the next big step. so today, i've just submitted my application for pres/vice-pres of fides. on friday i felt so confused and insecure about it, about my gifts, about my sincerity, about my desire, about my capabilities and i really second guessed myself. i wanted to ask you guys for advice but the opportunity came and went. so last night, i casually (meaning i mentally prepared myself for 15 minutes) asked my mum.
me: mummy i have to ask you a question
mum: WHAT?!
me: i've been thinking of running for fides for another term.. next year
mum: president or vice president?
me: umm. run for both la.
mum: if u want to run, just run for president la. but be careful ISD
me: 5 second stun
i had so much fear and reservation in asking my parents because of the situation at home but i didnt expect... such a brutally honest answer. it was an answer that made the question seem like it didnt need asking. Asking my mum was an important step for me and somehow her candid answer broke the bank. all i can is ptl!
if i do get in, its going to be a long year, busier than i'll ever envision myself. but i ask for your blessings and prayers, more so than ever. even know you're not there... you guys know my weaknesses the most and im scared the most of those things that can drag me down. really really need you guys <3
besides that, my dad's going for a scan tmr. it marks the end of his treatment and it will be to check the progress. as usual, we're really nervous for it... so please pray for us!
2 Comments:
reminds me of the time i asked my mom whether i shld run a second term for TPSU. she didnt know anything abt what i was doing in sch, dunno why i spend so much in meetings, keep coming back at 11/12pm, didnt see me when i was programme head at camps, etc. but she said whatever it is, she will support my decision, cos what else can she do right? hahah. she so oblivious sometimes :D
just know that, whatever it is, there will be pple behind you. family. and log.
von.
By 
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November 13, 2011 10:53 AM
haha actually, when I read it i remember that time I was in sandiego wondering if i should go skydiving for 300 bucks. it was like so ex! and somehow was under the concept that my parents would think it's ex and stinge, but when i actually asked them on the phone, they were just like, go la! have fun. I was a bit stunned because it was like... worry for nothing. and yea, in some sense, unexpected support. (:
By 
jes,
November 14, 2011 3:08 AM