Thursday, December 01, 2011
to know, to love, to serve
I am spamming the logblog of late. It's an exam stress thing really, I am online almost every hour and this is the how I'm communicating with people living in the world outside my gate. And maybe cause I feel like I haven't seen some of you guys in a while.
This image came to me during triduum mass that Fr Gino preached at.
Why do we even celebrate our feast day? It's not that big a deal right? Every year we have this series of masses where we sing the 'make me a channel of your peace' and get free food in the canteen so that we can mingle with the others in church a little more but this year, maybe, just maybe, it may be more than that.
I was going to skip mass because I might feel bad not studying for my test tmr, but if anything throughout the years of balancing church and studies, skipping a possible study period for mass has never been unfruitful. I do feel like I am being a bit too reliant on God and not pulling my own weight (God-helps-those-who-help-themselves principle) but I get by. Come to think of it, I don't really understand why church is such a high priority in my list.
So going for mass, I sat with Anne and later Andrew popped out before entrance hymn. I haven't sat in a non choir seat for quite a while and oddly I kept looking at blond Jesus stain glass in front like he was right there and then when I looked at the new breaking bread book, he looks like he had red lipstick. I laughed.
In the homily, Fr Gino asked the exact question I was asked before mass, why do we celebrate feast day? "Two reasons," he said. Firstly, its like Mary, having a saint intercede for you, especially someone who has an affinity with you. I don't think we give enough recognition to who st francis is as a person. Or at least I feel like I don't really understand his spirituality but today was the first step into understanding what he went through. He didn't want to live this lifestyle, impoverished, doing the holy moley stuff. But God led him there, inspiring him with St Ignatius and St Francis' sister who had such great faith. This is a story I think many can identify with. My own journey started off like that. It was a journey I could never have imagined.
The second reason we have a patron saint, is to strive to imitate that saint. You know, living proof that being a child of God in this world is not impossible.
How that picture at the top came about was when Fr was talking about some rich girl who had many branded bags and what not and later on, she found an awesome brand, Jesus! She became a nun I think. The story is pretty straight forward. "better than the riches of this world"
A sort of revelation came to me during mass. You know kyla right? Day in, day out I watch her play and everyone just taking care of her. The amount of care and concern is just unbelievable really and today, it dawned on me. The love of a father.
I've always been bothered as to why we were made. Why we were brought into this world. Why make us out of love and let us go through all this pain. Then think, fast forward 15 years to a 30 something year old you, Why have a child? Why have a child, make them go through life, let them read about war, pornography, suicides and deaths?
Love is really something so immense and such a difficult concept to grasp that it just kind of hit me. When I think about it, the love is just so immense that it develops into the creation of something so beautiful, you and me. We were born out of love and showered with so much love. Like how Kyla walks about and even though she doesn't know it, someone is there watching her back, making sure she doesn't fall. And if she falls on her face and it turns a bright pink, it is 'sayanged' away.
Having a baby around just puts a bit of perspective into the concept of parental love and of course, God's love.
Ok I'm done ranting. A little all over the place but that's my sharing style.
Praying for you all, have a blessed week (:
love,
jes
to know, to love, to serve
This image came to me during triduum mass that Fr Gino preached at.
Why do we even celebrate our feast day? It's not that big a deal right? Every year we have this series of masses where we sing the 'make me a channel of your peace' and get free food in the canteen so that we can mingle with the others in church a little more but this year, maybe, just maybe, it may be more than that.
I was going to skip mass because I might feel bad not studying for my test tmr, but if anything throughout the years of balancing church and studies, skipping a possible study period for mass has never been unfruitful. I do feel like I am being a bit too reliant on God and not pulling my own weight (God-helps-those-who-help-themselves principle) but I get by. Come to think of it, I don't really understand why church is such a high priority in my list.
So going for mass, I sat with Anne and later Andrew popped out before entrance hymn. I haven't sat in a non choir seat for quite a while and oddly I kept looking at blond Jesus stain glass in front like he was right there and then when I looked at the new breaking bread book, he looks like he had red lipstick. I laughed.
In the homily, Fr Gino asked the exact question I was asked before mass, why do we celebrate feast day? "Two reasons," he said. Firstly, its like Mary, having a saint intercede for you, especially someone who has an affinity with you. I don't think we give enough recognition to who st francis is as a person. Or at least I feel like I don't really understand his spirituality but today was the first step into understanding what he went through. He didn't want to live this lifestyle, impoverished, doing the holy moley stuff. But God led him there, inspiring him with St Ignatius and St Francis' sister who had such great faith. This is a story I think many can identify with. My own journey started off like that. It was a journey I could never have imagined.
The second reason we have a patron saint, is to strive to imitate that saint. You know, living proof that being a child of God in this world is not impossible.
How that picture at the top came about was when Fr was talking about some rich girl who had many branded bags and what not and later on, she found an awesome brand, Jesus! She became a nun I think. The story is pretty straight forward. "better than the riches of this world"
A sort of revelation came to me during mass. You know kyla right? Day in, day out I watch her play and everyone just taking care of her. The amount of care and concern is just unbelievable really and today, it dawned on me. The love of a father.
I've always been bothered as to why we were made. Why we were brought into this world. Why make us out of love and let us go through all this pain. Then think, fast forward 15 years to a 30 something year old you, Why have a child? Why have a child, make them go through life, let them read about war, pornography, suicides and deaths?
Love is really something so immense and such a difficult concept to grasp that it just kind of hit me. When I think about it, the love is just so immense that it develops into the creation of something so beautiful, you and me. We were born out of love and showered with so much love. Like how Kyla walks about and even though she doesn't know it, someone is there watching her back, making sure she doesn't fall. And if she falls on her face and it turns a bright pink, it is 'sayanged' away.
Having a baby around just puts a bit of perspective into the concept of parental love and of course, God's love.
Ok I'm done ranting. A little all over the place but that's my sharing style.
Praying for you all, have a blessed week (:
love,
jes
3 Comments:
exam stress..?
dom
By 
,
December 01, 2011 12:22 AM
like :D
By ,
December 01, 2011 7:48 AM
what's with the massive amount of space?! yea, exams means feeling obligated to study, means staying at home, means using the com, means blogging a lot more because I need my daily dose of ranting to people.
By 
jes,
December 01, 2011 10:26 AM